Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Sunday, October 07, 2007
thursday 4th october 2007
after jap class.. geoffrey and i went to eat at canteen and stayed at the library to study abit.. after while he went to his class.. while i stayed there.. then alvin came.. and we talked abit about tourmaline and his stuffs.. kinda sympathetize with him.. but well.. this kinda relationship.. there is no right or wrong ba.. its all about perspective.. then geoffrey came back.. then we went to grab a bite.. cos he said he is hungry.. then while eating.. i asked him how many people he is dating.. then he said two.. one of them is ashton.. then he told me that he did went out with her before.. then i was like.. orh.. okay lorh.. then you can ask her out sometime and stuffs mah..then yeah.. i became abit upset.. then just changed the topic.. and went back to the lib.. kinda ignore him abit.. then he can sense it ba.. then he asked mi why i seems abit upset.. but i just smiled and said nothing.. and i am fine.. but inside.. i was really hurting.. painful.. sighz.. almost gonna cry out..
then its about 4 plus already.. then we were supposed to go adm to pass my roomie the tickets she forgot to get.. so yeah. we went.. in his car.. then after passing the tickets.. my friend sheng.. is supposed to fetch me back home.. but geoff was saying he will send mi back.. and see doctor for my leg.. then i said its really fine.. i can go home with my friend.. and i can walk to see doc later.. cos its not that far.. but he kept insisting to send me back.. so i gave in.. but at that moment.. i really din want to take his ride back.. cos i was really feelin upset..and dying inside already.. but well..i just pretend i was okay..
so he sent me back... and went to see the chinese doctor.. but i was kinda glad that he was there with me.. cos the massage from the doc was really excruciating pain.. zzz..i almost died.. but he was there to hold my hand.. yup.. after which we went to have dinner together..
after dinner.. we came back.. and went to the pool side.. although it was nice lah.. but i kept thinking about what he said in the afternoon.. i became sad.. and emotional.. telling mi that he is dating ashton.. :(
then he sensed it.. so he told me that its becos he did date ashton for abit.. and that he was interested in her.. but at that point, she was attached.. so he din do anything.. and that they did went out for supper before and stuffs.. until i came into the picture... we did overlap abit.. and he did not want to lie about that to me.. so thats why he told mi that.. and he also had conflict with himself.. as much as he wants to treat me nice.. he is also scared that it will be very misleading.. cos he is not sure whether he can commit so fast and also because i am going overseas for 6months.. long distance is also quite difficult.. well.. i also felt the same.. dunnoe whether can commit now.. cos i dont understand what he is thinking.. so its quite painful having to keep guessing what he thinks..
but now that i understands its becos he is in conflict with himself, thats why he did the things he did.. and i told him.. dont go care about committment or what yet.. since we only just started dating.. just follow what your heart thinks and says.. not what your mind tell what is right or wrong.. so yeah.. he agree lah.. then he apologized for hurting me..
so yeah.. the air is cleared.. and yup.. he is treating me now much better.. :P
Reality Sucks Big Time
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