Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Sunday, September 30, 2007
wednesday 26th september 2007
i went clubbing with pris and kexian.. but later we splitted up.. i went to look for tourmaline and weiling and huilin instead.. wohoo.. i jus loved to club with them. geoffrey is also there with his hall mates.. hmm.. i drank like two lambo.. two graveyard.. share with huilin and tourmaline.. and i drank like 3 glasses of wine that a guy treated me.. lol. i was kinda very high after that.. then i went to look for geoffrey to dance.. then we danced abit.. then i cant really rem what happen.. but he told mi later that we went to drink.. but before that.. the girl who like him.. came up to me and ask mi if we were dating.. omg.. what i question.. this part i remembered.. i said i dunno.. ask her to ask geoffrey.. then she asked again.. i just said.. yeah.. sort of.. then she asked me to treat him right.. ouch.. i feel abit painful for her.. i understand how exactly she felt.. cos i had that experience befoe.. seeing the guy you like dancing with another girl.. oh.. my.. ouch.. but she is really nice for asking me to treat him right.. so yeah.. hmm..
the rest i really cannot remember.. just know that alvin sent me home.. weiling later sms mi that geoffrey isnt good.. cos he said he was coming.. but he nv did.. orh... i personally felt abit sad.. but its okay lah.. i cant remember anywae.. but later i called him after i reach home.. then he came over and looked for me.. and accompanied me till quite late.. or rather early.. just chat.. and i cooked noodles for him.. sweet right? :P i mean me.. lol
felt that we are closer.. quite happy.. :) things are going right..
Reality Sucks Big Time
5:09 AM
tuesday 25th september 2007
mj dance camp is here.. from tues to thurs.. but i will only stay till wednesday..
went to the chalet with jasmin and the rest.. played alot of fun games.. such as charades.. ice breakers.. and one memoriable thing is that we have to spilt up into 8 groups.. then we are supposed to come out with 4 eights of choreography for the song we chose.. so we chose icebox by omarion.. lyrical style.. and we won~ woohoo.. meant that we can slept in the room.. lol..
then at night we went to carry lanterns and walk walk.. qutie fun lah.. getting to know more people.. its really a good idea to have such bonding sessions..found out who are the really fun ones in the team. played murderer too.. the murderer.. doctor.. and spy.. whoo.. i "killed" jasmin.. i think she was really fustrated.. lol.. but i have really good acting skills man..
thru the night just talked crap and played games.. and had mac breakfast.. yummy.. then morning we had beach games.. and played alot of orientation games.. oh well.. our group won again! lol.. after dinner i left.. and went to meet friends for zouk! wed leh.. hello.. next post tell you more!
Reality Sucks Big Time
4:50 AM
saturday 22september 2007
i left my handphone in his pocket.. so it actually gave me a chance to meet him again the next day.. which is today.. so he came to my house to pick me at about 5plus.. then we went to walk around in town.. paragon.. he tried on an outfit i picked for me.. its a sweater with shirt inside.. he looks like a typical japanese school boy.. quite cute lah.. then we ate ice cream at taka.. till around 7.. he went to meet his friends.. while i went to meet raj and gang for dinner.. man.. they are late as usual.. waited for 2 hours with huiwen.. attendance is shirl...joo..raj..huiwen..bren.. went to hk cafe to makan.. and people watch.. then joo boy is also here.. ZZ also.. lol.. but they went off soon.. so we went to starbucks at wheelock to chill.. talked alot of crap and laugh alot.. geoffrey came back to look for us.. and chat more.. laugh until my tears are spilling out.. i still love you guys the best man.. after which.. geoffrey sent me back.. and we stayed at my place and chat till quite late ah..its really nice talking to him.. :P
Reality Sucks Big Time
4:28 AM
Sunday, September 23, 2007
friday 21st september 2007
he came to pick me up from my house after my tuition.. wanted to go to brazilian restaurant to have a meal.. but decided to go great world instead as we are going clubbing together with raj and gang later.. he brought along a friend..james.. quite a funny guy... so yeah.. it was really nice to see him that night.. although he doesnt have like excellent dressing.. but his charm still overpowers me.. haha..
so we went to get our zouk chop before 10.. then went to eat abit at hokkien mee.. then decided to go velvet dragon as shirleen has free invites there..then we can get free drinks..so we happily cab down.. and drank quite a bit over there.. brendan made me n him share one waterfall.. patrick prepared it.. so it was really alot.. hhaa.. then shirl had to keep pushin mi to him.. it felt quite nice hugging him.. cos we haven even held hands before yet lah.. things kinda just accelerated in the club.. not something which i expected to happen.. although it felt nice and such.. danced together... went back to zouk.. and danced at the dance floor.. we kissed..the feeling was.. really special.. cant really describe it.. but lucky it dark.. so he cant see me blushing.. we started convo in jap.. and i told him that i like him.. and he replied that he is gradually liking me more too..felt really happy and blessed..:P
he sent me home and we sat beside the pool talking and stuffs.. until about 6am..how i hope that the time will stop.. he makes my heart goes woo~.. :P
Reality Sucks Big Time
2:04 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
september 18, 2007
i went out with him today.. he came to pick me up at my hall at 530pm, and guess what.. he actually opened the car door for me.. that's really really sweet.. first time someone actually did this.. for me at least.. lol.. or maybe you could say its my first proper date.. so kinda felt abit nervous.. haha
i was kinda anxious before that.. thinking.. what if we dun have anything to talk about when we are out.. but on the contrary.. we have quite alot of things to share.. like the places we have been too.. japan stuffs.. different dialects of japanese in different states and era.. family members.. likings for music.. so it actually felt quite good..
we parked the car at riverside point.. and walked over to gallery hotel.. its quite a long distance.. but i am glad we parked over there.. kinda thought that he planned it this way.. so we could walk around and enjoy the scenary and breeze.. the weather was good.. cooling.. talked more while we walked over to the hotel there..
this place that we were heading offers the best sapporo ramen in singapore.. i tried it a few times.. and am so loving it.. that's why introduce him there.. he took tokusen miso ramen.. while i got tokusen shio ramen.. yummy yummy.. we ordered extra beansprouts and butter.. anywae.. butter rocks with ramen.. and some gyoza.. the meal was enjoyable.. the food and the company were great..
over the meal.. i invited him over to my birthday party.. and said yes immediately.. thats really sweet.. lol.. but i told him he can get 1 or 2 friends over to accompany him if scared he will be bored..and asked him to invite more cutes ones.. no gals allowed..:P
after our meal.. we walked around to clarke quay there.. and went to scout around for a place to have a drink.. went to 1 nite stand.. the place is really nice to chill out.. nobody in the place.. only us.. sitting at one corner at the sofa.. felt quite cosy.. we ordered beer and tequilla sunrise.. talked more.. about honeymoon places.. countries.. and more.. felt really enjoyable being with him.. i gave him a nick name call "yamakame" i wun tell you what it means.. but he said that.. if its from me.. he is fine with it.. lol.. but only i can call him that.. soooo cute lah.. yamakame..:P
well.. then we walked back to the car.. before that.. we took a picture together.. its really sweet.. then we went back to hall..
its been so long since i felt like that.. i hope it last.. :)
thank you Jesus..
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:46 PM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
kinda feeling emotional.. i also dunnoe why.. is it becos of love again? how come having a crush on someone will bring this kind of effect.. and maybe i haven been feeling that for almost one year.. cos i was attached.. then now this kind of feeling being imposed on me.. as if its a punishment or a crime to have a crush on someone.. worse still... when you think the guy is interested in you.. and next moment he just leave you hanging there.. could it be that he is just baiting.. oh my..
God pls help me.. i felt that i am being pushed to the abyss of nothingness.. waiting for each day to come as time passes slowly.. all these despite being very busy with school work.. having three reports to hand up by next week.. and yeah..
i got into mj.. modern jazz.. something which i really really want.. i got in.. i am happy for myself.. :) so that also means every thurs wil be dedicated to dance in the evening.. and i became the dance captain for hall.. continuing chee hong's lil baby dance team.. hope i am up to standard.. and today is the audition.. so i am planning for it..i really need to put my mind of alot of things.. its been so busy and tiring for me.. love.. i hope it works out..
a saying goes.. one shouldn't force anything to happen too much.. if not it wil fly away.....
i hope it wun fly away.. i want it to stay..
Jesus.. help..
Reality Sucks Big Time
6:04 AM