Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
its been 3 weeks since the start of school.. its been fun to come back to school and staying in hall.. being involved in Dinner and dance event in my hall is definitely fruitful.. to interact with the pageant people.. i am the programmer.. so i plan the timeline and coordinate the stuffs and prizes..and helped leon to chereograph the dance segment for the pageant people.. quite fun chereoing.. teaching them..
academic is okay.. i applied for GIP and INSTEP.. but i really really hope that i can get into INSTEP program for Japan.. i really really hope so.. and i am trusting in my God to realise this dream for me.. Seek first the kingdom of the Lord.. and all things will be given onto you. and i trust in that..
sulin told me her account of a story..
one day.. she was late for her jap lessons.. so she decided to take a cab to the class.. she wants to call a cab, however she realised that she only have 12 bucks in her wallet.. but she just trusted in Jesus that 12 bucks will be enough.. so she called the cab..
so on the way..the meter jumped from 4 bucks to 8 bucks to 10 bucks.. by 10 bucks.. the taxi is still no where near the jap class.. she prayed hard asking God to help her.. maybe she is able to find some money somewhere in the wallet..so sulin searched her wallet again.. to see if there is any extra money she can dig some where.. so she found 12 bucks and 40 cents.. thinking that it might not be enough.. she sms lek jun from the jap class to come down and help her pay the extra cab fare.. if the meter exceeds..
and she searched again.. she found another 15 cents..
then by the time the meter reached 12 bucks and 40 cents.. they are still 2 traffic lights away from the stopping point.. then guess what? the uncle stopped the meter!! and said to sulin, " u are in a rush right? you pay me 12 bucks and 40 cents enough already.. then later when you reach the place you can get down faster..:)" so sulin gave the uncle 12 bucks and 5o cents..
she is actually still rich enough to tip the uncle another 10 cent.. and still have 5 cents left with her.. and that is even more significant than having 1 dollar.. God really works in way that is so mysterious and wonderful.. we should never doubt the ability of God.. He loves us dearly and wants us to be at rest and trust in Him.. :)
attended church on sunday with sulin.. its a very annoiting message... all about being at rest.. and seeking His rest.. the only thing the the Lord want us to fight for is His rest.. and the rest will be left for the Lord to fight for us..
sweet isnt it?
:)
Reality Sucks Big Time
3:46 AM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
the weekend has been really fun.. wed went to club at zouk again.. with raj.. eugena..bren..wilson..jason..and his friends.. woh.. that jason and his friends are damn freaking hiong lar.. lol.. they like drunk already.. grinding and winding.. up on the floor( sounds familar?) that jason is really generous.. his pay is damn damn good and he is only 18 years old.. can you believe it? and he is treating us whatever drinks we want.. so we ordered quite alot.. then went to dance.. but my ex was there too.. although i din see him. but the thought of knowing he is there really pains me..dunnoe lar.. guess i am still not ready to see him yet..so i din really enjoy clubbing that night..
thurs met up with raj and gang again.. movie watching.. so we eat hk cafe..and watched rush hour 3.. oh man,.. damn funny lar.. must must watch..
i went out again on fri. cac camp senior's outing at bugis steamboat.. yummy.. freaking full.. but yummy yummy.. i am hungry now.. ZZz.. then went to play arcade.. played basketball machine..
sat.. out again.. no wonder my parents are scolding me.. went out with cac's sergia to mind's cafe and had our dinner there.. hell lota fun.. and i injured my hand lah.. play games too hiong already.. then sang ktv at dynasty..really cheap leh.. the room is only 10 bucks.. while each other only had to play 5 bucks for their drink.. so total.. i only paid 6 plus for 2 hours of k-ge..
then sergia left.. me n huizi went to look for the seniors a few doors down to crash.. and sang k again.. hoohoo..
sunday yoo.. dance and church day.. i love sunday.. cos i get to learn hip hop dance at jitterbugs..
today i learned lyrical hiphop.. and realised that afterall i might be more suitable for lyrical hip hop.. cos for the hip hop 2.. patrick taught those kinda hard and fast hip hop.. wah.. dunoe why.. maybe no stamina.. or mind blank.. cant really catch up nicely..but still manageable lar..
but i still love dancing no matter what.. :P
church is great.. i learnt alot of new things.. or rather.. reinforce alot of my thinking..
i learnt that.. there are many pipes that connect us to God.. and God is always sending golden oil and blessing through this pipes.. if we worry.. we are holding on tight to the pipe.. preventing the flow.. and thats when we get sick.. or things start to happen..we should rest in Jesus.. cos if we worry.. then His grace will not be able to flow through us..and prosper..
the world has this thinking.. if i worry about you.. that means i love you..
but its so warp.. wrong..
thats devil's teaching
when we stop worrying.. thats when your mind is at rest.. and the devil cannot invade you when you are at rest..
Rest in Him.. cause He gives you peace.
"Come to ME, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me;
for I am gently and lowly in heart:
and you shall find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Matthews 11:28
Man.. i am so believing a car from God.. :)
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:26 AM
Thursday, August 09, 2007
me and him just brokeup like one day before the camp..
dont ask me why and how? cos i really dunoe how to answer..
blame it on me..i guess..
anywae.. cac was not bad..lasted for 5 days.. being a gl really made me felt nice being a leader.. being in control..
maybe i am born to be a leader.. muahahaha!! :P made alot of friends during the camp.. just felt that my group isnt that bonded.. probably because my mgl is quite slack.. hmmm.. shant push the blame anymore..
after the cac camp.. i went to hall camp.. for 5 and a half day.. its one of the best i ever went.. my group.. greco.. got the best og award..kudos to all the gls and SAs.. and the freshies who put in so much effort. sweat.. and blood in this group..
i discovered that our og has many talents.. alicia used her karate chop during UBC to chop open a watermelon.. isnt that cool?
during the great escape.. our team ran together around singapore for 23 hours.. man.. and we really ran through the night..
during painting of banner.. first time i see freshie actually using their hands instead of the brush to paint..
during one of the games.. the girl actually got into the water to help the guys take water..
super enthu and on..
really amazed by them..kudos.. :)
really love camps.. and is suffering from post camp syndromes.. heee..
school starting.. and i have other things to worry about too..
as for the relationship.. honestly.. i really dunoe what to do.. we haven been talking much.. he doesnt seem wanting to talk to me too.. i dunoe.. i really dun.. only God can help me..
Reality Sucks Big Time
12:14 PM