Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Monday, July 16, 2007
finally i managed to get some personal time to myself.. past few days are hectic.
friday we went to club.. as usual.. attendance: me, raj, peck, shirl, bren, charis, nana, seokand daph..
it was the last time daph wil be clubbing in singapore.. so just go have fun..
but honestly i din have much much fun.. shirl brought derek alone..90 % of the time when i wanna turn to talk to shirl.. they are kissing, hugging or whatever.. kinda felt being left out.. cos other times when we club.. shirl n i will be always together.. maybe u can say i am alil jealous.. hmmm..
phuture was freaking crowded.. people moving past us everytime.. made me felt like going home.. cant even dance properly.. and the music totally sucks.. its past 1am already.. what the..
i felt like i was suffocating.. so i wanted to go out and just stand at one corner by myself.. told seok.. seok was kinda worried.. so she wanted to accompany me.. i said dun need.. then she tot i wanted to do some things like go find guys..i dunnoe why they always think of me that way...
then when i decided.. okay fine.. seok n i can go out.. then she told charis.. and charis wanted to accompany me as well.. is like.. wth.. thats why i din want anyone to follow.. cos when one go out.. another one wants to come out too.. and everyone must as well come out together.. do u get what i mean????
this din happen once okay..
there was another time when i just wanted to sit down cos leg pain.. so told charis.. then she wanted to accompany.. and then ask her friend take care of me and stuffs.. and after awhile.. msg mi to ask me if i am alright.. and if need her to come get me..
haiyo.. i am no freaking small kid.. and i think i know the place better than u do ok.. dont worry.. i am not going to get cheated by some guy and kidnapped away ok..
thats part of the reason i dun really like to club with my that group of friends..
you guys worry too much already.. it made me felt burden.. i know you guys are concern.. but take a step back alright?
okay fine.. then i stayed on.. to dance.. stood there.. then after awhile.. christopher from srjc came to the place where we are.. so we talked abit.. cos we are FRieNds..
charis told me that she doesnt like chris.. i told charis that we are friends.. then she thought that chris wanna do something funny.. and stuffs.. then kept eyeing on us.. then kept asking me to be careful.. after awhile.. she told me that lets go out of the dance floor..
WTF.. i cant even talk to my friend? charis said..she just wanted me to be careful of chris.. cos he two time ling ji and blah blah..
so what?! doesnt concern me.. he two time two time lar.. haiyo.. not like i will be having something on with him like that..
tell me.. is she over sensitive?
after we left the dance floor.. i received a call from my friend that she isnt able to finish her costume in time to partner me.. of cos was pissed lar.. so i showed a black face.. and charis told its becos of her.. nana and i went outside to buy hotdog and walk around.. then charis msg me ask mi not to be angry becos of her.. and she was just concern and wants me to be careful..
HAIYO!!! DUN even wan to reply lar.. not angry becos of her tell her so many times already still dun get it..
nana n i went to walk around and talk about our xin shi.. about how she felt towards to group lar.. that we always only club.. no meaning.. so we talked abit.. after which.. we went back to find them.. went back phuture to dance..
nana, shirl, derek and i went back earlier.. cos just couldnt stand clubbing that day..
sucks.. spoil my day..
Reality Sucks Big Time
2:11 AM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
you know how i felt today?
i feel that all guys are shit.. most of them..are all the same..
when temptation comes.. they will go weak in their knees..
moreover.. some will even enjoy the thrill of it.. fun yah? but i am disgusted..
at the end of the day when u are done toying them around..
you just wanna smack their face and say.." serve you right.."
its not my fault that you are weak..
your truly,
sevene's alter ego
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:28 AM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
brendan.. today i am really happy..
and i am laughing so hard.. close to tears..
why?
it's pay back time..
cos i won..
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:35 AM
Monday, July 09, 2007
i just realised that i am really so scary..
cos there's a monster living inside me..
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:13 AM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
it hurts... painful..
so afterall i am just a target set.. and being made used of..
i thought i played the game well.. yet.. the opponent did it better than me..
the game is over.. yet i was still trying to win..
just like a snake who thought its happily devouring its prey..
but just to find out that its actually swallowing the end of its tail..
leading itself to destruction..
thats an image of the number "0"
nothingness...
hahhahaha..brendan is right.. i want to win..
but i am dumb
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:20 AM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
been working alot lately.. why? maybe it's kind of a way to keep myself busy.. and not think about things.. ironically.. working made me think more.. probably because theres alot of free time in between when you aint serving customers..
what do i think of?
basically..
about life?
love?
friends?
money?
you name it.. i think it.. more about love maybe..
sometimes the things you made you even more unsastified..
or rather.. the things you dont get.. are often always the best..
and once you get it.. you dont want it anymore..
humans.. always isastiable.. incorrigible..
anywae.. just went into the room.. and overhead my sister talking to her bf.. i think.. the bf sounded irritated.. asking my sis " why you calling me so late in the middle of the night?"
sis replied " i was scared that you would be angry.. and thinking of that.. i cant slp!"
guy replied" okay.. fine.. i am not angry.. can i go slp now?"
sis" hmm.."
i went out of the room.. cos i know she wun be able to talk properly when i am around.. man..
guys.. idiots...
then i talked to my bf on the phone..
he was complaining to me about his work stuffs.. the same things again..
about the producer picking on him.. as usual.. the same stuffs..
i was getting quite pissed.. cos we seldom talk on phone.. and when we do.. he talks about his producer picking on him....
why cant you tell mi other stuffs.. i know i am your gf.. and i should listen.. but its kinda getting boring.. listening to the sammmeeee stuffs... and giving the same advice.. knowing that the same thing will happen again.. haiz.. kinda sounded abit pissed with him.. i think he knows..
we no longer have the same chemistry we used to have last time..
where have it gone?
can anyone tell me?
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:35 AM