Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Thursday, August 31, 2006
this whole week just stayed in the hall and study loh.. pia work for mon to thurs.. and friday for mi to complete my tutorial.. and i can relaxed for the rest of the days.. lol.. i am supposed to work on sat n sun for the acer comex show.. but i seriously dun feel like going loh.. sianz.. feel like going to the comex as a comsumer.. wanna look for printers.. ram and thumbdrive.. blah.. hope got good deals.. lol.. might be going with friends..
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:13 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006
yesterday i went to dance with tank, was almost late.. but luckily the class just started.. this class is taught by patrick.. went thru the steps.. they are much faster and more energetic and slightly more difficult than clair's dance.. tank and i enjoyed it tremendously.. he told me he felt very small in the class.. which means that there's much more room for improvement.. and said he like it alot.. cos that will urge him to do even better.. for me.. i felt veyr sastified as i can learn such nice steps.. would love to go there much often.. hahaa.. i love dance!
anywae.. after lessons.. we went to walk around.. eat and ktv.. sang for 3 hours straight.. woh.. shuang.. got the vip big room... cos they ran out of small rooms..quite nice.. not very ex also..two person less than 40.. for a sunday.. hmmm.. nice.. and after that.. we went home..
today i learned something really important for me..he taught me the 9/10 principle..
Discover the 90/10 Principle.It will change your life.
> >>> >>What is the 90/10 Principle?
> >>10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
> >>90% of life is decided by how you react.
> >>> >>What does this mean?
> >>We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.We cannot stop the car from breaking down.The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10%.The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%.
How?
By your reaction.cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react. Let's use an example. You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just had happened. What happens next will be determined by how you react. You curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terribly. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home, When you arrive home, you find a small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.
Why?
Because of how you reacted in the morning.
Why did you have a bad day?
A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?
the answer is D.> >>> >>You had no control over what happened with the coffee.> >>How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day. Here is> >>what could have and should have happened.
Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "It's ok honey, you just need, to be more careful next time." Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and Your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having. Notice the difference? Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different.
Why? Because of how you REACTED.
You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction. Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle.
If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, Getting stressed out etc. How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off! Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket?> >>Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later work?> >>Why let the cars ruin your drive?> >>> >>Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.> >>You are told you lost your job. Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will> >>work out. Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job. The> >>plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take> >>out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what> >>is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why> >>get stressed out? It will just make things worse.> >>> >>Now you know the 90-10 principle.> >>Apply it and you will be amazed at the results.> >>You will lose nothing if you try it.> >>The 90-10 principle is incredible.> >>Very few know and apply this principle.> >>The result? Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress,> >>trials, problems and heartache.> >>> >>There never seem to be a success in life. Bad days follow bad days.> >>Terrible things seem to be constantly happening. There is constant stress,> >>lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry consumes time. Anger breaks> >>friendships and life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest.> >>Friends are lost. Life is a bore and often seems cruel. Does this describe> >>you? If so, do not be discouraged. You can be different! Understand and> >>apply the 90/10 principle. It will change your life.> >>> >>Have a Great Day & and even Greater Tomorrow!
now imagine again.. your bf is angry with you.. you controlled your temper.. you try to appease him.. make him happy.. then after the whole situation has become better.. you both talk things over and see what's wrong.. your relationship became better and maybe even closer..
you two learn and grow together.. isnt it better?
this made me think of alot of things.. really glad to hear this story and theory.. i will try to become a better person.. although i am naturally a good natured and temper person.. but sometimes when i am with my loved ones.. i tend to lose my temper quite abit.. i should learn to control it.. and consider the feelings of them..
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:17 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006
school has been good.. three days work week.. zai right? although one of the days is like heavy.. but i seriously dun mind man.. plan nice nice le..
lessons are tues to thurs.. so fri i will use the whole day to study very hard and do tutorial.. and might spill over to sat..
then after sat to mon i will rest and play n go out and spend time with my loved ones.. :)
hall life is good too.. between lessons there are like at least 2-4 hours of break.. so i would usually use this time to go back hall and rest.. or have some food..
i just bought a laptop.. fujitsu tablet pc.. t series.. yummy.. groovy functions.. enables me to write in my laptop during lectures and tutorials.. without having to print out the notes.. save all that hassle.. and then i can also write in msn.. with ease.. blah.. nice.. so ai zai.. but i like..
although previously i so wanted to get a macbook.. cos i really love the functions and everything about it.. but after much serious considerations and discussions with teng and mum.. i decided to get fujitsu.. cos much more practically.. although much more ex.. 2.5k.. but worthit lah.. hee..hee
went to sentosa recently with teng..went to suntan.. then met up with ly and ry.. and mums.. wen to watch muscial fountain and fire performances.. nice! i love sentosa.. i wanna go there again.. anywae.. after taht. we went to eat! then met up with gto teacher, nathan! he is such a cool dude.. a true gto! wooot.. he kept saying fuck though.. not like i mind.. he is funny.. friendly.. and cool.. lol..
anywae.. the next day.. teng treated us all to eat steamboat.. mi.. ly..ry..nathan..and teng.. ahhaa.. the food there is nice man.. we ate sooooo much.. ly and ry had to leave earlier.. so the rest of us just stayed on to eat.. woh.. cool sia.. din know you can eat sooo much.. what a pig.. bleahz..
the other day also went to watch fireworks with friend.. the display are so nice.. qutie touching.. lol..
anywae.. i today stayed back in hall to do my tutorial.. guess what.. i did from 11am-6pm. dohz.. whats up siaz.. i took freaking long!!! oh no.. must do hasten next time.. lol
anywae.. home sweet home now.. hahaa.. but i guess i am going out tmr...
my principles.. work hard.. play even harder.. :)
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:41 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
it's been almost a month since i blogged..
bleah.. here are the updates..
last last week..i went for cultural activities club camp from mon to friday..
knew alot o friends from my group as well as the camp.. the peeps in innu, my og, are fun loving and enthusiatic.. but honestly.. i found the schedule too packed.. the games are not super fun.. but like quite typical games.. there aint much rest in between the games.. so you just literally play games from 8am to 3am.. with one hour break for lunches and dinner.. da.. the food also not delicacy lah.. cant ask for much anywae.. we went through initiation too.. omg.. it was dirty.. smelly, cold, and tiring.. you get thrown by eggs.. toothpaste..flour.. blah blah blah.. and worse of all.. you are blind folded through the whole process..the sp night was good.. we went clubbing. and everyone were dressed in their best.. the food at big O is delicious.. and the atmosphere is nice.. and you have to sit with your sp.. my sp is nice lah.. but abit too quiet.. blah.. clubbing was fun too.. overall.. i felt that this cac camp is too shacking.. and mentally and phsycially tiring.. but its the crowd that makes it so fun.. i love being with my ventura friends.. thanks peeps..then after 5 days of physcially challenging games and fun. i went to this hall 7 camp from mon to sat.. also another round of fun and games.. overall. i found this camp much better than the cac camp.. cos its not as packed.. there are at least more rest.. you can feel that the games were effortly planned.. the ogl are also very caring.. and made us feel very comfortable.. made alot of friends.. on the last day aso went clubbing.. went for awhile.. then went to meet teng for super..
arh.. and finally. on monday!! orientation.. got to know my tutorial group mates.. the girls are fun and nice to be with.. blah.. hahaa.. i hope we can be really good friends.. lol.. first day of lecture also not bad..:)
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:58 PM