Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Friday, June 23, 2006
i dun even know why i cry..getting ignored from someone is definitely so sad..especially someone so closed to you in the past.. iyet becos of some stupid things.. we acted as if we dunoe each other.. its been about two weeks.. i thought everything is okay.. but somehow its really sad..
hais.. it doesnt really matter anyway... i doubt he ever comes in to look my blog.. atfer what that happens..
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:19 AM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:08 AM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
duno why.. everytime i see your face. i feel angry.. not exactly angry. like got the urge to be angry.. i am pissed that why you dun understand.. why you are liddat.. dohz..
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:24 AM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
thank you passer by pam for leaving that comment..
hmm.. personally.. yeahz.. i agree.. i told him before we have no future and i really cannot assure him that i will give himmy best. so thats why i told him if he wants to give up he can do so.. but i din really expect that he will be so disappointed in me and thinks that i am childish because of some of the comments i said.. i admit that maybe some of my comments may sound very hurting to him.. but i dint mean it directed at him.. was just troubled by some stuffs.. wanted to find a venue where i can vent out my feelings.. which ltr i found out he read about my blog and was disappointed.. din realised that it can hurt him some much..
i am not trying to hold him back or what. just tat i dun want a friendship to be ruin.. to end up this way.. its sad..
ps> forgive me..
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:24 AM
Monday, June 12, 2006
feel so sad.. i am quite sure he hates me now.. heart felt quite pain.. although i acted as if i am strong inside.. but it seems that i am putting up a front.. ZZz.. i hate this feeling..
Reality Sucks Big Time
6:01 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
maybe i am really an arrogant shit.. so proud and full of myself.. personally i just feel confident.. and like to talk to people and share about my experiences.. but perhaps it might seem to other people that i am actually proud and arrogant..but i hope lord jesus will guide me and help me to find a way to express myself not to be so proud and humble myself before man and God...
actually i wanna take this chance to also attribute many of my little success to my God.. like when i am doing sales.. can say that got quite abit of luck ba.. and its not my efforts but my Lord jesus' grace.. without Him.. i am nothing..
hmm.. in the past i can say i knew nothing about handling people ba.. but through the years.. i began to see the world and knew that there are alot of different people existing.. from..kind..gentle..caring..loving.. to scheming... hating..skeptical..and tough..
and today.. i witnessed that human can actually love someone so much.. and then when the relationship turned sour... the love became hatred.. sighz.. what for? hating someone so much..think she/he is childish or proud..i know you are sad and hurt.. but it seems to me that you might not even love that someone you claimed, you love as much as you think..
to give up so easily.. because you are hurt.. because you are tired...
you should have seen what happen to me..ZZz.. shant go into the past..
honestly if you ask me what i feel when i read that post.. i feel nothing..
just too disappointed to have any feelings..
i already told you how i feel.. yet if you insist doing this way.. i respect your decision.. at least you feel better.. i told you before.. dont.. or else you will sure be hurt by me.. turn back.. before its too late..
nobody can force anyone to do anything or feel anything.. its all just in the mind..
and mind is a powerful thing.. you can control what you feel and what you decide to do..
maybe in your mind i am already the person you thought i am.. if you continue to think this way.. up to you..
but i just hope that we still can be friends..
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:10 AM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
damn fan ah.. seriously no bf fan.. got bf also fan.. now no bf.. but feel so sianz sia.. got this guy like mi alot.. but i sierously dunoe how i feel towards him.. i know i enjoy his company and sweetness.. but i feel stressed and tied down in a sense.. cos he will call mi everynight and morning to talk to me..
then i am like that one loh.. i dun really like people to come disturb me when i am busy.. especially when i am busy.. hmm..like if i never reply him or call him back then he will keep asking and like you know.. abit sticky.. then people who knows mi knew that i dun like sticky people.. i am a super bian tai person..
but he is so so so nice.. i also dun wan to hurt him..
sighz. not that i dun like him.. but i am so flirtatious in a sense... that i cant settle down.. i meet all kinds of people everday.. like i did the recent roadshow for toshiba.. i see my in charge.. i think he is kinda cute.. and then i met toshiba singapore direct sale rep.. he also treat me damn gentlemen.. send me home and stuffs.. but of cos just friends lah.. just nice to talk to only..
and then my friend from fujitsu say wanna date me. i know he kinda liked me for qutie some time le.. i think got more than 2 years..although might not be consistent.. but he also treat me very nice..and got another guy also keep asking mi to go moon walk with him.. ZZz.zZzZzz... hmm.. if i were to reciprocate to all of them.. i also dunoe what to do.. or let's say i attached to someone.. then i also cannot treat other people nice mah.. then i am also those kinda who treat almost everyone well mah.. whether girl or guy.. ltr my bf jealous how? dohz.. not that i like all of them but i also dnoe how to say lah..
how to jaga between good friends and bf and interested parties.. and of cos not mentioning those whom i think are cute.. my future bf sure cannot take it one loh.. who will be able to take it man.. so therefore.. i decided to remain single.. cos right then you can enjoy the benefits of people treating you nice and then the options of choosing who to go out with..
lucky i have a blog.. can type out what i feel.. whether people see this or not also nvm.. becos its a channel for mi to vent out whatever i wan to say.. so fan ah!!
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:37 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
heh..so long nv blog loh.. lol..yeahz.. i broke up with desmond liao.. clean break.. he dont love mi anymore.. i am too disappointed in him also.. nothing much also.. anywae.. still friends.. so nothing wrong.. now my life is good. same as usual anywae.. ah.. nus also accepted mi in business school le.. now i am confused.. whether to go nus or ntu's business school.. ntu i got seok n suen to be with.. who are good influence.. and of cos ntu is 3 years course.. shorter.. while nus has a better social life.. nice campus lifestyle.. but four years.. and i dun have my good friends over there.. hmm. really must think about it.. most likely go to ntu.. heee.. working hard these day.. must earn alot alot of money.. heh.. not very happy to work in apple le. found out alot of complications over there.. not only about the working hours there.. also about the people.. everyday is like a war.. besides sales figures.. you also must regard relationship over theree.. oh man. nvm.. must jia you anywae.. goign to quit anywae.. 2 more months.. lol.. till then.. see ya
Reality Sucks Big Time
5:44 AM