Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Friday, March 24, 2006
having mood swing now.. i hate mood swings.. it makes me feel like i am a bad person.. demanding.. and easily annoyed.. vulnerable and can cry easily.. hate it.. hrmpF.. feel like punching something... adrenaline staRts to be released into your body rapidly.. taking over your emotions..pushing you to do things that you dont like to do.. like throwing tantrums.. making people irritated.. mood swing sucks..
Reality Sucks Big Time
12:13 PM
Thursday, March 23, 2006
just came back from a movie with shirleen.. omg..i watched hills have eyes.. its soooooooo freaking scary.. i mean.. it is like ghostly scary.. and gory scary.. n digustingly scary.. and suspense- scary.. omg.. and i was like super cold in the cinema.. no wonder.. my teeth chattering and hands are so cold.. doh.. and guess whos beside mi.. shirleen..-.-" hahaa...no protection feeling siaz..doh.. anywae.. desmond is back in singapore.. he has alot of stuffs to do.. and i am going soccer tmr night.. with the apple company.. cool siaz.. hope it will be fun.. anywae.. it had always been fun... :)
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:47 AM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
i am in indonesia now.. using the cyber cafe. just reached yesterday.. so stayed at my uncle's place. then went to shop n ktv at nite.. hmm.. not bad.. their ktv seems to have more songs than us. anywae.. today shopping loh.. shop finished then going gym ltr.. to be healthy.. i think there are more activities for the next few days to come.. anywae.. its quite nice to be here lah.. so long nv take the plane already.. during sec sch ust study for Os.. then ltr study for As.. always no time to go overseas.. hmm... haha. ill be back son.. ariund 22nd.. so.. see ya guys soon..
Reality Sucks Big Time
1:24 AM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
hey guys.. just to update you.. the total road show i sold about 70 ipods in 3 days. lol.. quite a lil achievement.. after while i rested at home everyday... going online and slping at like 5am..and waking up at 3pm the next day.. man.. life is good.. especially when you know that someone is loving you.. and when you are in love.. yeah.. i am attached le.. he is the first guy who actually let me feel this way.. heart beating faster..and face going red when he first held my hand.. and this feeling went on so constantly..almost every free time i have.. and now that he is in msia... although he is coming back on 23rd march.. but i missed him like crazy.. constantly checking my phone if he sms.. or going online hoping to see he is there.. and everytime when he calls me dear or baby.. i will melt..almost just like mashmallow melting under the heat.. sometimes i hope that i dont like anyone.. so that i wun have this kinda vulnerable feeling.. having to depend on someone.. when he is happy.. i will feel happy too.. or maybe when he is busy and not able to accompany you.. you wil feel sad n disappointed.. but somehow.. you know that deep inside you.. you know wan to let it go.. although this kinda disappointed feelings suck... but its like..you are willing to be so.. hmmm.. i dunoe what is this call..
anyawe hope he comes back soon.. :)
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:15 AM
Friday, March 10, 2006
today's sales quite good.. i sold about 25 ipods.. of which.. 8 are 30 gb video.. hahaa.. hope to sell more.. talk until my throat's dry.. bleah.. anywae.. after exhibtion..desmond came to find me...and we went to mache to eat.. sooo nice.. so long never eat mache le.. hahaa.. so deprived.. and went to walk around esplanade.. woh..he can dance leh..i was quite amazed.. he can do shuffle and breakdance.. so zai... bleah.. i am feeling tired again.. goodnite
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:26 AM
Thursday, March 09, 2006
wed
slept till super late.. then went out to meet desmond to makan n then watch the date movie.. its qutei nice leh.. got a mixture of movies inside.. the typical "the scary movie".. theres like.. the hitch.. how to lose a guy in 10days.. bachelor.. brad pitt n agelina jolin.. meet the fockers..and others.. super hilarious.. then after that.. we wen to find nicholas n the rest at wheellock.. bleah.. went home..
thurs
today is the first day of the road show.. man.. corey told us the target is 20 ipods each.. doh.. i only hit 12 i think... 4 1gb nano.. 4 4 gb nano.. and 3 30gb video.. hmm.. still alrighty lah.. hope i ccan do better tmr.. hahaa.. :P anywae.. after a long day of work.. went to meet desmond for dinner.. thas all.. ah.. tired.. going to slp le.. nitez..
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:27 AM
Monday, March 06, 2006
sat
went to work.. helping mark to cover his shift.. so worked until like 5 plus.. then wen to meet ern for dinner.. and watch movie.. underworld evolution.. doh.. not nice..i mean i liek the vampires n werewolves inside.. but.. the actions are not very exciting as compared to the previous vampire n werewolves show.. i cant remember the name.. doh.. the one where the werewolve killed the vampire.. hmmm..
anywae.. after that.. went home played computer and stuffs.. slept at 1 plus.. doh.. next day gotta wakeup at 6am... ciaos..
sunday
got up at 6am..prepared and stuffs.. packed and left the house.. took a cab to jurong east.. science centre rd.. informatics.. for a media corp radio shoot..
reached pretty early.. so waited outside.. then this guy came along... his name is terence.. also doing the shoot.. so chatted alil.. then went in.. got changed into this blue colour uniform..and black pants..
before the shoot started..they gave us breakfast.. which is like bee hoon.. still not bad lah.. haha.. then helped us with the makeup n hair do.. lol.. i think my hair do sucks.. -.-
oh well.. then went inside the fliming place..
basically we were suppose to be working.'. doing soldering job.. then this guy came along wanting to charge his hp.. haha.. you guys shall see it on tv..
did the rehearsal.. learning the actions of soldering.. then break...waited for the camera to be fixed.. and stage to be arranged properly.. then did the shooting.. for about 30 min.. then break..
did some touch up on the stage again.. then ate lunch.. went back to shoot.. did rehearsal for the next scene..and waited for the lightings to be adjust properly..fell asleep waiting..shoot.. NG.. shoot again.. ah.. that lady went out of beat.. shoot again.. tape roll.. camera roll.. shoot! 1....2....3.. okay.. good take.. -*claps*-
oh.. break time again.. went into the waiting room to rest.. played computer.. toilet time.. go drink some coffee.. went back to the room to wait again.. director is calling.. okay.. go back to the shoot.. rehearsal for next scene.. arrange this arrange that.. man.. fell asleep again.. wokeup.. did shooting.. okay.. cut! breaktime again.. wen to drink some tea.. and walked around.. talk to some of the guys n girls there.realised one of the girls there is the girl who interviewed me when i got scouted by UAN.. so qiao... make friends..
oh.. shooting again.. ah.. this time round.. the director say we can go le.. bt after ahwile.. he told us to wait for awhile.. so we went back to the room.. this time gotta do a facial expression.. did two takes.. and yahooo~ can go home le.. finally.. hahaa..
then terence's bro came to fetch him.. so fetch mi home too.. so nice.. haha.. thanks terence.. went home!!woh.. sooooo tired.. shooted from 6am to 6pm.. manz..cos my neighbour's having birthday party.. so wen to eat.. and went out to find pris.. helped her do her chem tutorial.. surprisingly.. after liek 4 months.. i still remember how to do the chem tutorial.. wooohoo.. so who needs chems tutiton? :P den went to kallang to find the company.. its soccer time again.. this time round.. jimmy the boss is even here.. cool.. played like a few rough rounds.. kicked my toes against the wall.. doh.. hurts manz..
then went over to mac to makan.. doh.. woohhhhh~ nicholas's friend is damn cute.. he looks like lin jun jie.. or 100 times better looking than him.. then nicholas intro his friend to me.. hahaa.. i shooked his hand.. aiyo.. so nice n friendly.. hahaa.. -*shy*- lah.. haha.. nothing else.. went home.. ciaoz..
Reality Sucks Big Time
12:14 AM
Friday, March 03, 2006
fri
went to celebrate suen bday..ate at swensen.. super long time din est there le.. the baked rice is still as nice.. anywae.. gave her a guess wallet.. and went to watch movie.. big momma house 2.. omg... damn huge like nobody's business..bleahz...but well.. its not bad.. laugh quite a lot..
after which the rest went home. so mi n pris went to club.. dunoe why also.. i dun mind clubbing lah. pris felt like going.. so accu her.. hmm.. met two of the mj people there.. they were there the first time.. so decided o ask them join us.. better mah.. hmmm.. quite nice people.. saw ben n alvin there again... doh.. why do i always see them in clubs.. anywae.. intro them to my friends.. and then ltr on we met two other friend.. from hk.. cool yahz.. lol.. heard alot of interesting stories about his life.. shall tell you guys another if time allows.. reached home late.. so only had like 4 hours of slp.. n next day gotta work..oh..well..
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:20 PM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
results released le.. meridian jc did really well this year.. better than last year.. we've got like 86 students getting 3 distinction and above..and about 92% getting 100% passes in all subject..
reminds me of ms lai always going about how badly we did for our promos and prelims.. "worse than last year's batch.. i am really worried for you.." doh.. i am glad we proved her wrong..
so she started reading out the list of people who got 3 As.. and seeing those blessed ones went up to collect their results.. what an honour.. the list started from arts class.. then to science class. then guess what? doh.. they skipped our class.. heh.. meaning no one got 3 As in our class.. doh.. expected..
soon.. we were dispatched of to various booths to collect our results.. still feeling alright.. not worried not stressed.. just normal.. but as i saw irene's face and wendy's face when they collected their results.. i started to feel alttle weird.. when it's finally my turn.. mr yeow look at me.. and took my hand and shook it.." weiling.. you deserve it... " suddenly my heart skipped a beat.. i took the result slip over from him..and peeped at it..i gave a lil scream and ran out of the hall..
cant believe my own eyes.. i stared again at the result slip..reading
Biology-B
Mathematics-B
Chemistry-B
General paper-B3
i was like.. woh..i cant believe it.. i mean.. it isnt that great a result.. but hey.. it still a quite good looking cert..i always thought of geting triple As.. but after been thru juniorcollege.. i think i will be super contented with BCC this kinda results...but..
tears started flowing..as i thought of how i played so much during first year..and retained.. cried alot.. suffered a great deal.. started going church...and eventually miracle happened.. i got promoted.. din get retain.. so struggled through my 2nd year.. studying really hard.. gave up my relationship with bryan.. cos i cant place him in the most important place in my heart.. due to poor academic results..i am sorry bryan...
with my mind pre-occupied with studies.. i tried my best.. yet still kept failing everything..its really so disppointing.. went for remedial.. after school classes..and the list goes on.. prelims results got everything O.. doh.. felt even worse.. went for even more class n remedial n consultations..
studied everyday till 6am..waking up after 6hours.. and study again.. finally A levels came.. did okay for some paper.. while there were some that werent tiny bit like a typical A level paper.. A level ended.. let go... was realyl worried about it for some time.. but pastor prince taught me not to worry.. cos God is in control.. and jesus said.." let not your heart be worried.."
now.. all these went thru my mind.. tears started flowing.. i am glad that at least my hard work paid off.. and proved those people who wanted to retain me wrong.. and most important of all..
To God be the glory..
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:56 AM