Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
you must be gloating at mi now right..
waving a flag right in front of my face
declaring victory.
and you.. another one..
not understanding how i feel..
what am i gonna do..
i cant tell you..
felt it all coming back to me...
once i found pleasure in different outlets..
but i tried so hard to bring myself back to earth..
am i going to fall again..
i prayed Lord Jesus.. that you will help me..
and grant me strength..
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:58 AM
Saturday, January 21, 2006
sat
my mum said no..
" no ... our financial abilities doesnt allow you to go overseas to study.."
"freak.. wthz.. "
silence..
i walked out of the house.. waiting for charis and krystle to meet me.. going for work.. frreak.. that lass is late again..
"no.. you cant go.. we gotta see how first.." mum's voice ringing in my head..
suck.. what should i do.. i felt so stuck.. just like two legs buried deep with mud.. damn..i cant escaped.. and its sinking lower.. i hate that feeling..
even when i am serving customers.. i almost cried out.. quite a few times..
talked abit to one of the customer.. whos really nice.. fatherly character.. advised mi a lil.. felt like crying in front of him..
Fcuk.. who knows what i am going thru..
stuck.. once again.. with no where to go...
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:48 AM
friday
Fcuking triple attacks..triple the amt of agony..
what does that mean..
and do you know what it meant to me?
maybe you will never know..
cos you dont understand..
or else you wun be walking proud past me..
thrice.
although face smiling..
but heart aching..
like crazy.. torned..
and you know what?
fcuk you..
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:31 AM
wednesday
had an off day today.. so slack at home..went sun tanning in the morning.. swimming.. and rested.. read angels ad demons by dan brown..quite nice.. then at nite went to meet my colleagues at apple centre.. after which.. we went down to kallang- the cage.. to play soccer.. its an indoor field.. small but good enough..
at first.. we saw the better guys played for a while.. then its our turn to play.. so mi.. corey.. charis.. krystle, mjark.. nicholas and edmund and his brother teamed up and played against people like costa.. boon..and some other people.. super fun lah.. mi corey n nic were the attackers.. and charis n krys were the defenders.. played like so long and so hiong.. shuang..
anywae.. after playing.. stupid corey n gang teased mi like nobody's business lar.. keep suaning mio.. face red le lar.. doh
later we went mac to get drinks.. and went chinatown to eat porridge..ate the frog's egg porridge.. so-so only lah.. then went home..next day still got work lar.. damnz it..
became soooo freaking tired the next day.. hehz..
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:49 AM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
today no work.. so went out with shirleen to shop.. went to orchard to look at bags.. shoes... clothes..i wanted to get this guess bag.. but shirleen says that its not super nice.. nice only.. so in the end.. i din get it..grab a bite at macs..
went to DFS... we went to far east.. ate fried mar bar icecream.. super super nice.. and drank ya kun barley drink.. super nice too..slack around.. and got myself a pair of new jeans.. yippee.. not veyr ex.. around 35 bucks.. started to rain qutie a bit... super usper cold lar.. somemore alreayd got a bit of headache le..then went to scotts road guess shop.. saw my pretty guess jacket.. but dun have my size..
so took cab to suntec.. went to guess kids.. to show shirleen the bling bling belt.. theres a guess word -bling bling at the buckle there.. pink in colour.. super chio.. but its guess kids.. so din get it.. too fat.. :P
shopped around some more.. and went to guess shop.. tried on my super pretty jacket.. its brown in colour.. soft velvet material and with pink strips and prints.. love it.. tried the sizes.. and decided to get it.. its 150bucks.. quite ex.. but worth it.. shirleen bought a small guess bag.. quite cute and elegant kinda.. cost abt 70bucks.. wah.. asked mi to pay for her first.. -.-" shirleen also bought another bag at pacific plaza.. and a wallet too..woh.. i think today we spent a bomb..
anywae.. the weather is super bad.. kept raining.. i was so cold.. think i gotten too much cold air.. now fever.. 37.6 degrees.. sia lar.. tmr might not be able to work again... think ill call in sick tmr.. dohz...anywae.. with this weather.. my jacket will come in handy.. yea!!!:)
p.s- i love my new jacket
Reality Sucks Big Time
6:16 AM
Sunday, January 08, 2006
went back to school the other day.. to pay for my school fees..and get my precious guzheng.. saw many familiar faces.. and chat alil with some friends.. kinda miss mj.. although i dun like it.. after that went to century square to watch narnia with my mama.. and ate ding tai feng.. then went home
everyday is like every other day... everyday go work serve customers... then go home and watch dvd.. and slp.. theres nothign much to write too..
today when i was working.. just cant help but think of some people who were and are important to me in a certain phase of my life.. dunoe why too.. feel a lil sad.. but i know i shouldnt..
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:50 AM
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
been sicked for about 3-4 days le.. sia lar.. din go work for three days.. still felt quite weak.. having sore throat.. flu.. and alot of phelgm.. rested a great deal.. at home.. watched "yi1 dao4" some korean medical/doctor show.. super super nice.. i tink wun lose to da chang jin.. taught alot of life principles and medical knowledge.. super touching...
that reminds me.. when i was young.. i wanted to be a doctor..dont think alot of people know about this..reason... so i can help people and touch lives.. but seems so difficult sia.. i aint sure how my jc results will be too..but i hope i can realise this dream.. although it seems so far away...
talking abt results.. today i just threw away all those tutorials and papers i did in the past two years... sooooo many stuffs.. when i drag those stuffs outta my house.. kinda feel alittle bu she de.. but choi..of cos i have to throw them away.. i dont wan to retake the exam again.. oh well.. i guess i shant worry abt these stuffs.. not until march..just leave everything to God ba.. :)
its the new year.. i haven made my new year resolution.. although i know even if i made it.. i would properly not fulfil it.. but its always good to have a goal i guess.. will make one soon.. know this post is kinda boring.. lol.. gonna slp soon.. good nite.. work tmr!
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:33 AM