Sunday, July 24, 2005
(barbelo n kaoru) matching gothic style...
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1:47 AM
first cosplay.. lucifer n barbelo.. as husband n wife partnership.. gothic punk style
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1:45 AM
the two girls beside mi.. cute n matching.. gothic lolita partnership
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1:44 AM
i dunoe what kinda feeling is this lah.. but its just matching..
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1:43 AM
the two person behind.. mi and totchi.. macham gothic husband n wife feeling...
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1:42 AM
gothic+visual+mafia
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1:40 AM
gothic
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1:39 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Attention cosPLayers or interesteD to-be cosPLayers~! -
i am looking for a person to partner mi for my end of year cosplay or yr2006 cosplay event...
these are the following criterion are:
genre: gothic/lolita/gothic lolita/ visual kei/victorian style
gender: the gender of the image is male.. but cool girls able to pass off as guys are also acceptable..
age: 17-22 ( or if u look like young..)
style: quiet... cool..
height: taller than me.. i am 168cm.. so perferably taller than 175cm.
size: slim.. not too macho
eyes: moderate..
this is the basic criterion ah...its sorta like a partner kinda thingy... so during the event.. mi n my partner will be walking around together.. and posing for pictures..the costume n image will be similar and compatible....
well.... most of you guys know my style...more of a visual person.. so there will put some gothic makeup... portraying a kind of "Master Vampire n doll" kinda image..or something similar... image can be further discussed...
as you guys know.. i am having my As.. so i cant cosplay now..so this cosplay after my As will be a big one for mi.. so i intend to make it as good as possible... so interested friends.. can look for mi via msn.. or hp loh..
if you guys got any friends who are interested can also intro mi.. yahz.. i wan to make this image a striking n impressive one.. lol.. so cheers!
i have posted some picture.. to give a generally idea.. not the exact costume or image.. but the feeling i wan to portray..
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11:40 PM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
mana~the real person.. from moi dix mois..
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5:51 AM
Monday, July 18, 2005
my brother is going from bad to worse.... i really cant stand his attitude... with hormones rising n temper raging... he had won a title of a little monster in the house.. not exactly little.. judging from his oversize body.. n his blown up head..full of arrogance.... ignorant of how other people feels.. sometimes i feel that he should get some sense knock hard into him.... cant think.. can he? but of course.. i almost forgot... his skull may be alittle too thick to penetrate through....with all those bread mould colonising his temple... hardly utilise his brain juices i guess.. if he's got any left... well.. just snatch back the computer from his trotters...guess he must be snoring away in his sty...ugly.. yucks.. imbecile.. incorrigible...
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11:56 PM
Journey
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know whyI do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose contro
lIt's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.
to you
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10:03 PM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
i have a tendency to be pulled towards other people problem... when sometimes i say i really understand how you feel.. i really understand it.. seems like i have gone thru the pain once myself..
i have friends who told mi their problems.. and i realised that i am inclinced to solve their problem for them.. or at least ease their pain a little.. not realising that.. i am taking on more burden then people usually do...and when i cant do anything about it.. i feel even worse....
but why..? maybe becos i feel real.. maybe thats my raison d'etre.. to be needed by people..
no matter what.. everyone needs to feel needed by someone...and to protect the someone they love...
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10:18 AM
what is "Love"?
kinda disappointed... dunoe why...
i realised that its the "Love" i loved... not the person that i love...
it may seems like i like someone... but come to think of it.. i dont really like anyone...
perhaps i may have some crushes here and there.. which i dont really care about..
is there anyone whom i really love?
or is it becos i want express my feeling for someone so that i can feel the "Love" of loving someone?
that leads to another question...
what about those people whom i really thought i loved? 2 person... one in sec4...a guy in cosplay.. mana cosplayer.. another one in j1-j2.. ex classmate.. these two people... i liked them for more than 1 year...
so was it really love? crush?
or just another person whom i seek an outlet to express the "Love"
recently.. when i realised that i stopped liking the person...
it felt like a relief..
yet when i think back.. i felt sad...
but soon i stopped thinking..
and i realised that i was quite happy with the way things were...
then i met this guy... whom i know for a very long time.. prob 2-3 years..
we have been good friends all the while..
there was once when we began to show interest in each other..
but.. i guess i knew him too well to understand his actions n behaviour..
although it was really short while...
but from that.. i realised that.. although i dun "love" him..
but i dun mind him..as in.. not much of a emotional attachment..
but maybe another form of just wanting an outlet to express "Love"...
so what does that mean seriously..? and what does that make mi?
seriously.. i am still searching for an answer...
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1:08 AM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
sunday> cosplay was awesome indeed...i reached there at 10 plus.. cos my mummy wants to go to grandma;s house lah.. then i waited at the back of the dome for like dunoe how long.. for miss amber to come... haha.. she has the white fondation with her mah.. that the base... so without that i cant put on other things.. so finally she arrived.. we went to put on our costume..manz.. its so tight.. i could hardly breath.. but luckily i have been dieting for a few days ya.. and i din eat anything on that day.. and of cos.. the makeup was on.. we took like 2 hours top get everything on our body..
the makeup.. the wig.. white dress.. spag..hair extension... gloves... pants.. boots... leggins..and many others small details..
after everything is on.. we walked into the dome.. with much elegance in our footsteps..slow n silent.. lol~immediately there is this group of girls who came up to us and asked for a picture.. but we were carryin things lah... so we say wait.. we put down our stuffs first..
the response on the whole was really good...there was many people who came up to mi n commented that they really love my costume...
walking around and stuffs.. this guy who cosplayed hisashi.. came up to mi n we chatted lah.. realised that we were alone.. so we decided to walk together.... actually i prefer solo cosplaying or small groups.. i dun really like big groups.. not that i dun like associating with people.. but i think that bg groups are too messy.. and my nature of my cosplay isnt suitable to have big groups..i prefer cosplaying jrock image.. like mana.. my fav cosplay.. who is always solo...
there was once when i handed my camera to one of the photographers who wants to take pic of mi.. then hor.. when i got up.. i realised that she took my camera and was gone~~~!!! i was panicking siaz.. so i told the guy who cosplayed hisashi.. he is jiro btw.. yahz.. we went to look.. lol.. finally she came back to mi.. and apologized.. pHEW.. all my pictuers siaz.. my precious pictures..
ltr my new friend jiro n i went around posing n taking picture.. saw neried there.. manz.. she cosplayed raison d'etre.. delicious...my toshiya.. oooo..
met a another new friend.. she cosplayed kyo.. and she is soooo cute.. opps.. thats an understatement... she is scary n still cute lah... lol.. wanna hug her!
there is also batman... fantastic 4... predator.. naruto... glay...bleach...chobits.. sakura card captor... lol.. and many more.. standard of cosplaying is going up...
after lotsa of photo taking.. went to eat with the battle royale group.... had some nuggets.. then went home... thats all...~
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5:51 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
cosfest was wonderful... you can tell from the crowd... that the scene is growing bigger... well.. i reached there around 11 then wait for amber to come.. we did our makeup and stufs.. first the costume...then white fondation... then the eyes... then the lips then the forhead.. then the wig... n boots.. and many other elaborated details..well.. by 2pm.. our makeup is finally done.. its really tough to do the makeup loh.. in order to look pretty and look mana-ish during phototaking.. i had quite so fun doing stuffs.. afterwards.. we parade around area... took pics and stuffs.. there are quite alot of people came and ask for a picture.. and quite a few commented that they really like my costume.. i guess.. i was quite contented to feel that.. at least.. i did not spoil mana's image.. and at least i carried it off quite well.. heee..
i also overhead people asking if i am a guy or girl.. well.. i am flattered... cos mana is a guy. yet his image is so girl... so if i look guy or girl... iszit it good? but of cos.. partly becos i am veyr tall due to my high heels boots.. hehz..
posed look around.. see the merchandise..then met some friends..
i got to know this guy.. cos he asked for a picture.. then ltr we hit off quite well.. and stated talking and stuffs.. we realised that both of us are alone..doing solo image..so we decided to just walk together.. lol.. he did hisashi from Glay... a cute guy lah.. lol
i gotta know this kyo cosplayer too... she is so cute~~ angmoh... but really..she is nice to be with...
after that wen to eat with jason's n kyoru's friend... hahhaaa..
tired... now.. i am closing my eyes... nietz..
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11:11 PM
last pic of the day...
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8:06 AM
honestly.. my makeup okay hor?
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8:05 AM
mana is so elegant
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sexy mana
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8:04 AM
look at my sexy legs
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8:03 AM
mana posing outside dome
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8:03 AM
yes... mi as mana
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8:02 AM
mana and battle royale
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8:00 AM
mana~~
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7:59 AM
gaara from naruto~~
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7:58 AM
jack skeleton
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7:56 AM
mana n toshiya
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7:55 AM
mana and hisashi from Glay( my new friend)
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7:53 AM
nereid... as toshiya.. what a pretty gal
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mana
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7:50 AM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
yahoo~~~ exams finished le... so i have been slacking al the way from friday to now.. monday..
friday>>
went home to ZZzZz first after exams.. must replenished the lost slp.. lol.. then i went to town to meet alex.. guan xiong...wendy.. irene... n others.. then ate pasta mania... walked around.. went to play arcade.. then mi n alex challenge DDR... hahaha.. first game was shit.. cos we chose the wrong mode... then ended up playing one person's game.. sianz.. then the second game was damn fun.. we danced until got qutie a few people was looking.. heee.. bhb.. then at the 4th stage.. we tried paranoia.. doh.. soo tough.. lol.. then we failed.. lol.. but a fun time lah..
after that... i also cant really remember what we did la.. but went to meet my 04s207 people... they were eating at the scotts food court.. hehz.. then mi n shirleen went to shOPPing~ looks around and stuffs....quite fun leh... shopping with shirleen.. nv knew.. lol.. she looks really pretty that day.. wearing home clothes lol.. then we went home together after shopping n walking..
saturday>
met wilson go shopping.. he late man.. what a guy.. dohz.. went to search for present for his gal.. n i bought a oriental necklace.. damn nice lah.. at least i reallyt like it.. cost around 30 plus bucks.. then i went to meet seok n charis.. walked around.. i bought a zara skirt..cost 30 bucks.. dohz.. nice lah.. lol... then we makan with suen n gary.. n arif.. man.. arif looked cute.. opps..su en still have big boobs.. gary's hair.. lol~ ns guys.. oh well.. charis n seok still the same.. i always see them mah.. so no diff.. anywae.. i realsied that arif got approached by the same modelling agency.. " UAN" hmmm... he rejected them.. saidt if his As is good he can join.. lol.. tht time i also told them the same ting.. doh..
seok bought ting ting a barbie doll.. n her sister a book.." purpose in life" i think should be quite nice.. hmm.. comes with a journal.. to help people find back their purpose in life...
charis bought a tube top i think.. black colour.. 8 bucks only loh.. woh.. i just love great singapore sale... eveyrting is just so worth buying.. especially when you finished your exams.. and you have time... n money!!! lol.. i just recieve my pay.. woots.. thats 400 plus commission n 120 basic pay.. lol~ good money ya?
btw.. i bought my guess bag le.. so nice.. at least i thin kits nice.. original price is 110.. but 20% discount.. so.. its 85 bucks.. hee.... i just love discount.. lol.. but anywae.. i am sure guess margin is high.. lol...
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11:50 PM