Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Saturday, May 28, 2005
wassup guys.. slack the whole damn morning.. waiting for terence to wake up..cos going out together.. but he sms mi say he cant go out liaoz.. sianz...........i am soooo bored.. can you imagine? duhz.. luckily my co friends called mi out.. so we went out to slack.. celebrate weilin n jackey birthday.. lol.. weilin so nice. treat us lunch.. then after that most of them gotta leave for concert.. so i asked eugena out.. went shopping n watched movie.. woh.. tell you.. masgadascar is soooo nice!!!!!!!!! i like to move it move.. you like to move it move it.. he likes to move it move it.. we like to........ MOVE IT! cool!! must must must watch. the lil thing sooooo cute.. btw .. he acts cute.. holding his little tail to his face n act cute.. awww.w. i wan a act cute pet.." i'm a steak!! i'm a steak!!!!" soooooooooooooooo cute.. awh.. cant take it liaoz.. faintSZ
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:34 PM
Friday, May 27, 2005
friday>
okay.. what did i do.. slept so so darn long day.. then woke up..called wilson.. ask him go walk walk with mi.. hahaa.. so i went to the dentist.. finallllllllly took off my braces.. woot.. i think i look more confident with a confident smile.. lol.. but still gotta wear retainers.. anywae.. wen to funan to look for mark they all.. my working friends.. then went off to find wilson... he ah.. guy.. still late! 45 min.. man.. made a girl wait for him.. thanks..duhz.. okay fine... so we went simlim to get some wires for his com.. and look for our work friends.. catch up n stuffs.. nice feeling.. went to makan n shop at bugis.. i made him accu mi until 7.. so i can go to church from there..
church was great!! pastor prince talked about revelations.. about signs... make mi think of the times when i had literature.. wanted to ask eugena out ltr.. but she went home.. so sianz.... okay.. crapped enuff.. ciaoz!
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:26 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
hehz... okay.. thats it.. hahaa.. people say my hair not nice.. sianz.. hope the fringe grows faster.. lol.. or else i dun dare to go work liaoz.. but there are also people who thinks its really nice.. thanks!! you made my day.. hehz.. how's sch? the same old stuffs.. mugging mugging muggin.. that's it.. friday is a holiday!! cos!! soccer team won champion.. woots.. okay.. thats right.. holidays.. means slack.. means slp.. wootS!
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:48 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
right believing produces right living..
all these while people has been impart right living.. which results in christians living in legalism... eg would be.. orh~~ i have to go to church.. or else God would be angry with mi.. but the fact is that.. we dun go church becos we have to go.. but becos we want to go church to know more about the God who loves us so much.. n the blessing that belongs to us..
do some of you guys always think negatively about life? maybe when you see a group of friend in front of u.. giggling n talking.. you would think that they are talking bad about you..? the sight itself will not harm you.. but believing that they are talking bad about you gives the power to harm you.. in contrary.. if you believe that those people are praising you.. that give you the power to be happy n reign in life..
in Isaiah 54:9-10 God swore " i would not be angry with you, nor rebuke you."
dun you guys find it weird? God's words are power.. but why did he swear? its becos of human's weakness.. becos human lie.. by swearing.. God gave you assurance that he will nv nv nv condemn you.. why? becos God cannot punish the same sin twice.. since He punished them 2000 years ago... when christ die on the cross..
but sadly.. there are many christians out there who always have the belief that God is angry with them.. for example.. went you do something wrongly.. you keep having the thinking that.. today will be a bad day.. does that sound familar? to mi.. that does.. lol..
hahaha.. anywae.. i had ice cream with sulin.. talked about movies.. house of wax.. hahaha.. she said that its really nice.. feel like watching it too..
Reality Sucks Big Time
3:04 PM
Friday, May 20, 2005
lalala... was freaking tired in school.. kept sneezing.. that damn morning sinus again.. duhz.. anywae.. went home with kenneth.. met my class on the bus.. so went to yoshinoya at heartland with them loh.. hahhaa.. got wee keat.. daquan..lily..raj..shun..sihong..wee ling.. and blahblahblah.. hahaha.. then went to walk around.. i decided to cut my hair! so after much deciding..i cut my hair!! hee.. wanna see? :P
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:33 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
actually.. all these while..i have been thinking about us..many times.. i spent my time pondering why dun you put in any effort.. seems like you just decided that everything will just be over between us..once cla talked to mi.. seems like you assume that i am ignoring you like plague.. but the fact was that.. you did not even come n talk to mi or wat.. i am a girl.. i have my girl pride.. surely you expect mi to initiate? sighz..you asked mi out once..but.. i told you i couldnt go... becos i was celebrating my friend's birthdya. thats true.. surely you tot that is a lie? guess that all the while.. i was the one doing to initiation of sms you.. even during our relationship.. sad.. come to think of it.. tt's wasnt even any courting in the first place.. n you told mi that you are tired of playing games.. in the sense of trying even to court mi back..? i seriously dunoe what you are thinking.. i gotta admit that there is a communication breakdown.. and its my fault that this happened.. but.. where are all those effort? sighz.. well..i admit that i still think of you n possibility of us being together.. but i guess all doesn't matter anymore... at least not now..i am not going to think about anything else now.. and place all my focus on things that matters...
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:51 PM
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
yo guys.. wow.. my school got this really handsome guy.. oh well.. at least i tot he is handsome.. hahaha.. he looks korean like.. hee.. but i bioo only lah.. hahaha.. just look.. no touch.. think he is taken liaoz.. hee.. sianz.. :P
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:59 PM
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
why am i feeling so shitty.. i dun undertsand.. why is there so much up my mind? its so fustrating... i cant differentiate whether is it water n tears on my face.. the past.. the present.. and what i should do in the future.. handling of problems..friendships... relationship... friends in trouble.. i no longer know how to help them.. feeling helpless.. feeling useless to certain people.. what should i do? nothing?
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:09 PM
Thursday, May 05, 2005
wah sianz!! i am still thinking about my nokia7270!!! i wan to get the phone desperately.. haisz.. anywae... today hasnt been a great day either.. last night.. i did not sleep well.. again.. dreamt of alot of things.. like.. going to see doc.. go pub.. go meet friends.. crazy dreams.. hmmm.. anywae.. i kept waking up in the middle of the nite... cant seems to slp well.. sianz.. morning i felt sooo tired.. that i broke down.. i relaly dun feel like going sch.. but.. my mum dun allow.. anywae i went sch.. luckily i bought coffee.. which lasted for qutie a while...
my mood was still damn irritable.. then some people just choose the correct timing to irritate mi..i dun like people to say i am a wannabe.. and anywae.. comeon.. i am myself.. i am not a wannabe..if u say that i am a jap wannabe.. yahz.. i dun mind..but thats becos i relly love jap alot.. but pls... you said that i am a -------- wannabe.. dots... pls think before you say anything k? let mi emphasize again.. i am who i am..
for those people who knows mi.. would understand that i am a gal who likes uniqueness..remember how i dislike that gal who got the same shoe as mi? oh.. come on.. okay.. i am quite what lah.. but.. think for yourself.. people who are reading.. would you like people to own the same things as you.. maybe friends no.. but strangers who own something same as you.. i am quite sure you would be irritated..
anywae.. i dun care le.. like i care anywae..
well.. i went to see a doc today.. its regarding my slping problems.. got some pills from the doc.. hope i can slp well tonight so i would feel much better tmr..
going to hit the bed right now.. ja ne~
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:50 PM
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
yo guys.. update for syf... okay.. we got silver for syf... actually its within our expectations.. however.. we are still really disappointed with the results.. although all of us din mention anything about being disappointed.. but i can tell that thats not what we really wanted.. oh well.. other schs like vjc.. hcjc.. njc...tjc got gold.. congrats guys.. actually, considering our size.. of 40 people piece co.. comparing with other schs with 80 over people.. despite our size.. we did our co proud by doing our so called best.. minus-ing the stage fright n stuffs..after our co competitions... we have to geylang to makan beancurd.. yummy.. i love the beancurd there.. my favourite siaz.. anywae.. after everything.. i am really so tired le.. today in sch.. i was so irrititable.. hoping people dun come to talk to mi..especially in the morning assembly.. when they announced the results.. i was like.. dots.. then raj n gang turned back to look at mi.. and smile enthusiatically.. i was like.. duhz.. i wasnt happy at all..then after that got lecture.. then i started having people congrating mi for getting silver.. duhz.. -.-" what the fuck.. i even said to one of my friends.."huh? congrats for what? what so good about a silver..?" but well.. after that.. i decided not to be that bad.. when people congrats i just oh.. okok..then after that i went back to class to study biology.. asking eugena to help mi buy coffee.. cos i was soooo tired..but well.. she forgot to buy.. then i was already so pissed le.. then nvm.. sian 1/2.. whole of 3 tutorial lessons i was dying of fatigueness.. dots.. then emi tried to cheer mi up.. but i wasn't really in the mood.. so sorry gal.. i was really damn tired..but well.. everything is over.. anywae.. after my bio test.. i wen to meet my co friends.. thkning that i am the only grumpy one.. but i found out that they are also as grumpy as mi.. but becos we shared the same feeling.. thats why we end up cheering each other up by talking about the things that happened today.. kns.. wahahaha! fun.. then wen to take neoprints and stuffs..
anywae.. i wan to get the nokia 7270~~~~~ flip phone.. manz.. i so wish i got the phone.. but dun think my mum will get for mi..... maybe i shall direct my attention to 7260.. haiz.. but i guess most i would just end up with the old phone i got now..
manz.. i miss my nokia 6610.. at least i can trade in that one for 7270 so the price wun be so steep.. damnz..
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:47 PM