Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Monday, February 28, 2005
on sunday... i went church with sulin.. bryan.. and lester.. we went there early.. so that we can queue up for seats in the main auditorium.. anywae.. waited waited waited.. then finally went in.. today pastor prince talk about the love of God.. why his grace is sufficient for us.. in the old testament.. the law is given by moses.. but now! in the new testament.. grace n truth is given jesus christ... the presence of law is to let us be aware of our sins... law kills.. and demands from man.. however.. grace impoarts righteousness to man... our new covenant is to remember no sins...
if righteousness comes from the law.. then jesus christ would have died in vain!!! i learnt that jesus christ is my righteousness...
hey.. but some people may interpret it as.. when sins abound.. grace much more abound.. so i sin more lah.. so i will have more grace~~~ the answer is NO! becos you know how much God loves you.. you wouldn't want to sin... when you are under grace.. grace will stop sins... you would know that you are God's beloved... today's teaching is really very touching.. we learnt so much.. and learn that our daddy.. who loves us sooo much.. and.. he is the God of the universal...i almost cried lah.. hahaha.. and i heard from bryan that he cried.. hehz heh.. cute siaz.. anywae.. after church.. lester.. bryan and i wen to makan..yummy.. my ban mian~~
after that.. i went to his house to study.. hee..and slack around.. had dinner with his parents.. watch japan hour and stuffs.. he is learning japanese now.. hope he master it well..hahaha.. then next time can practice together..
abit paiseh to say sia.. but i think that he is soo capable of making mi feel so loved.. he is soo charming.. hahhaa.. he doesnt like the "wrinkles" at his mouth area..but i think it makes him look sooo cute loh.. hahaha.. dun mistaken k? he is not that old.. just 22 only.. hahaha..and let mi tell you guys.. i am so glad that he is taller than mi.. rich.. handsome.. cute..quiet.. yet humorous at times.. but hey.. that's not allll loh.. come on.. so superficial meh? hahaha.... kk..he loves God as much as mi.. caring.. gentle..crappy..fun loving... woh.. everything a girl hopes to find in a guy.. hahaha.. promoting him? no.. hahahaa.. he is mine le.. hee.. i mean.. soon.. wahahha! crap.. what am i talking about?
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:40 PM
Thursday, February 24, 2005
my sister went to holland le.. for one year.. haix.. so sad loh... fetch her to the airport n send her off... when they weigh her luggage is like 34 kg.. 14 kg overweighed..the agency told her that 30 kg is allowed..but there wrote 20 kg allowed only.. wah!! then they want us to pay 590 singapore dollars loh.. so my sister went to a side to unpacked some of the less important stuffs.. so to make her bag lighter.. we took out 8 kg.. leaving 26 kg.. then luckily we went to another counter.. n they let us pass.. phew~ when she left.. i cried lah.. haix.. well.. although she is really irritating at time.. and always like to bully mi.. quarrel everytime... but.. well.. still feel sad lah..leaving for 1 year.. hope everything will be fine for her..miss her lotsa..
thurs
when to airport with raj..to study.. studied for two hours.. and eugena came.. wah.. she come then cannot study liaoz.. went to eat swesens.. icecream.. woh.. then went to watch movie..white noise.. hehz..dun feel like elaborating.. sian.. yawn~
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:13 PM
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
sunday morning~ went church as usual.. bryan n lester went with mi.. today went to the overflow room.. duhz.. cos the queue sooo long.. hahaha.. its a good thing in the sense that alot of people are going to church.. but sighz.. gotta come and queue like at least half an hour before.. hee..but i dun mind.. after church.. we went to watch movie.. constantine!!!! really nice.. but abit bleak ah.. gabriel is the bad angel in this show.. but the effects of the show is really power~ must watch k guys.. although there are some parts which i dun really understand.. hee.. anywae.. after that.. i went to trinity christian church there to meet charis n ziming n others.. cos there is a drama there.. then charis ask mi go.. heh.. its a drama.. talking about life.. well.. its good for people who haven accept christ.. but.. hahaa.. personally i dun really like dramas ah.. then the air con very cold.. well.. but the drama serve its purpose... alot of non believers accepted christ.. so its actually good!!! hee.. had dinner with them.. ate indian rojak.. heee~then went home!!! wah.. soooo tired loh.. ZZzZZzZzzZZzzz...
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:32 PM
Monday, February 21, 2005
hey guys! my weekends was packed.. hows your? chingay rehearsal was relatively okay.. went there at like 4pm..then briefing.. marked attendance.. collect bags n changed..raining.. so we stayed in the cramp shelter.. waiting for the rain to stop.. had a little bonding session with my group people anywae.. they are reallly nice people... so finally the rain stopped.. we ate our burger n apple pie..then ran all the way to wisma.. cos thats where our station is... :) we waited for like 1plus hours for the parade to kick start... overall the rehearsal was good!! after everything.. its home sweet home..
next day.. wokeup at like 12 plus... went to dental.. then chingay.. the weather is really sizzling hot.. and the fun is building.. today is the real thing and we gonna kick start a real fun party..so did the usual stuffs.. attendance n tags.. then ltr dispatch us down the streets.. hahaha.. there is this cute guy on the float.. dancing.. sooooo hot loh! he got the grooves n the moves.. lol! then we were pretending to like wanna ask for number.. then he also pretend to take out his hp! woooot!!! soooooo cute! wahahahaa!soo zai loh.. anwae.. there is this guy who plays the er hu on the PA float.. he plays real well.. hahaha.. he saw mi waving frantically at him! heee... btw.. he is a middle age man.. so dun anyhow think k?! wahahaha! there is this chiobu serene in my group.. she is sooo cute.. her chi name also weiling.. real nice gal.. had alot of fun with her.. after the chingay.. its the street part for 1 hour!!! man!!! soooooo fun! like clubbing yet better than that.. there are real nice songs... when they played the "tuo diao" song.. then we a group of friends... strip off brendan's shirt.. hee... naked! :P.. anywae.. i sprained my ankle..heh...but i still can run n jump lah.. hee.. channel U interview mi n my friends leh@ hee.. asked mi what time i intend to go home tonight.. i said,.," jing ye bu hui jia..~~~~!!!" hahaha.. which mean.. not going home tongiht.. becos its real great fun out here.. then we shouted.. n went on to play! soooo fun~~~ people shoudl come join in.. after that.. my friend fainted.. haix.. den i sian already.. then went back to the quarters.. they sitll having fun there loh.. woh.. heee... went to eat with charis.. king.. felily.. arif... bao zhen... brendan.. after that left mi n arif n charis n bren.. so went to cine to check out movie times.. but arif dun wanna watch movie.. so we slacked around.. then went home.. hoooommmmeee ssweeetttt hoooommmeee~
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:02 PM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
yo!!! so tiring loh sch.. nv been so tired le.. after cny the slakc period.. must buck up n adjust to sch agian.. sianz..got cca today.. waited for sooooo bloody long. and gues what? the teacher decided no to come.. thanks k thanks.. anywae.. went to study with charis n pris n suen at macs.. stupid loh.. mas whole time got this plasma tv that plays super digusting songs.. eeeee... gross!! pls mac..anywae.. gonng slp early tonight.. really damn tired.. no energy le.. hahaha.. so yeahz.. miss ya guys.. buai buai~
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:12 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
okokay!!! now i update my blog k?! wahahhaa.. pls loh.. so busy.. din you guys noe that i am a busy person?!!! :P okay fine.. i went to friend's house to pai nian.. sooooo nice loh. his house.. its a pent house.. meaning got roof top one siaz!! somemore at bukit timah.. veyr nice scenary around.. well... we cooked spaghetti... found out that his mum is a dancer.. cool.. look young n pretty loh... then visited his roof top.. woh.. i tell you if i am ever going to his house agian.. i will take a pic of the place.. so damn nice... at night still can see stars loh.. got a swing there.. a place for bbq.. and wooden table near the edge.. where you can seat there and have food.. a pond for the coils to swim in.. flowers all around.. a little corner.. decorated with a touch of japanese living room style.. floor is carpetted by wooden flooring.. super nice.. anywae.. after bai nian.. we went to indoor stadium for a special church cny service.. sulin n lester n lizzy also came.. so happy.. here we met again.. sulin so chio loh.. everytim i look at her.. i just wanna hug her.. so cute.. anywae.. afte that..bryan.. lester n mi.. we went to eat at bugis mos burger.. hee hee.. told stpid lame jokes n ghost stories..had a great time.. :P
Reality Sucks Big Time
3:04 PM
Friday, February 11, 2005
charis..if you are reading this.. this is for you..
as some of you guys know.. i had some ups n downs...becos of some stuffs which i mentioned before in my blog.. i guess unconsciously i din know that i am venting these feelings on the stuffs that i do..which maybe all wrong altogether.. until one day when charis reminded mi.. and told mi... despite the fact that those words may not be pleasant to the ear.. she reminded mi that there are still people who cares.. and the onus is on mi.. that i should be responsible for what i do.. since people around mi trust mi enuff... when i read that message.. i had a mixture of feelings.. was it anger that she has no rights to say mi? or was it repentance that i ought to have? i din know what i was really feeling.. but i decided.. hey.. although what she say might have strained the relationship between us..and worse.. she may think that this has nothing to do with her and she can just not care... let mi go on with what i am doing... but yet.. she still say it.. so that i can wakeup...and repent..
this is what i call a friend...
i am glad that i am not one of her superficial friends and is someone she cares for..
a friend in times of happiness
a friend in times of sorrow..
a friend who would remind you when you stepped outta the line..
i also wanna say thanks to seok.. i know you care.. i appreciate it very much... thanks babe...
Reality Sucks Big Time
2:15 PM
Monday, February 07, 2005
yo guys!! today had chinese new year rehearsal until like 730... so tired loh~~~ got headache liaoz.. tmr is the chinese new year celebration.. sianz.. dunoe why dun feel like chinese new year at all...still like busy with the school work.. and like got no chiense new year feeling siaz.. lol.. but i think on that day will have ba.. must have a good rest.. hee!vday is also round the corner.. love is in the air.. so what are you guys doing on v day? wish ya guys good lukc in your relationship woh`~ muakz everyone~~~
to that guy> heyz pal.. yah.. i talking about you~~ you must recover well soon from your problems k.. no matter what i will always be here for you to listen to you... i may not know what happen.. but i will keep ya in my prayers... do let mi know if you are okay.. k?~
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:37 PM
Friday, February 04, 2005
hehz.. sorry long time nv blog.. heh... been busy for the weekdays... feeling so tired n restless when it comes to maths.. i hope i love maths more.. hmmm.. had my biology test.. still quite okay lah.. scared got careless mistakes.. n also got chem spa.. totally drained out le.. hee hee~
friday loh!!! another week passes like that.. i will be going out tonight i guess.. hmmm
anywae.. chinese new year is coming.. wanna wish every single one of you guys a new happy year.. hope you guys enjoy the holidays.. v day also coming.. hehz.. think i will be going out with charis n felily ba.. since i humji .. dun dare to ask him.. dun think he will want to go out with mi anywae... hahahaa.. well.. it's always like that lah.. during vday.. so it makes no difference anywae...well.. this weekend is gonna be a busy week..so chill guys.. see ya soon~
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:25 AM