Touch and die
love is fake
love is dry
many hearts are broken
so is mine
heart is aching
but front looks fine
face is smiling
but its all a lie
you said you love me
but i think you are blind
get lost asshole
get lost and cry
stop irritating me
and i'll say goodbye
Touch and die,
Sevene
Promise
I cant promise i would love you forever,
but i can promise
That i will love you as long as you love me.
Shower me with care and flowers,
take my hand and hold me tight,
Whisper sweet nothings and bring me light.
Fear not baby,
for i dont love you for your looks and riches,
but for the innoncent heart for me endlessly.
Alittle cute.. alittle careless..
So childlike yet so real..
Take it slow you said and i feel...
I know you meant it
and i believe you for it
That our love will last
as long as you love me..
and as long as i love you..
I promise.
Only yours,
Sevene
Hibernate
Feeling warm tears run the cheeks
I begin to realise that she is weak
How can she pick herself up?
When her soul has gone so sick
Attempts of revival went in vain
Yet she walked down the lonely lane
Realised that everything has changed
Nothing will ever stay the same
Not once that she felt her heart ached
Not twice helplessly she laid
Amendments needlessly made
Cause everything came forth too late
Her mind went into a daze
She felt her feelings fade
She made up her mind not to wait
So her heart began to hibernate
Yours truly,
Sevene
A Poem for P
Does it hurt so frequently these days?
When tears fall down your face.
Just like a dagger stab right into your heart,
And you feel like you are falling apart...
You pleaded to make it stop..
And blames it to be your fault.
Thinking of it haunts you so
And watching everything else unfolds..
All that laughter, jokes and such
But yet its just another smile that purposed as a facade.
Another veil to mask the ache
When you realised that everything is fake.
Yours truly,
-Sevene-
Sunday, November 07, 2004
listening to FIR cd now.. "lydia" nice song.. you guys should try to listen to it... great voice..haix..i realised that this year my life isn't as good as it was suppose to be.. firstly.. got into mjc.. feeling like... why am i in this school? when i first came to this sch for open house i told myself.. " i will nv come into this sch.." but why the hell am i here.. haix.. nvm.. then this is the year which i got myself into a whole shit of troubles.. i was used to be carefree n alone.. n dependent alot on myself.. being single n stuffs.. and i am happy about that.. but these two guys budge into my life.... they are not my bf for goodness sake.. let just say i dun have a bf before..those two guys happen to have a gf..and they are NOT my bf.. and they just happen to budge into my life of solitude and disrupted everything..i dunoe how to go about explaining it..anywae.... somehow say to say.. i was tempted into these hell... once n twice.. thats why now i despise those people who have a gf/bf but still go find other girls/guys..maybe i despise myself too.. but i told myself.. i will nv allow myself to despise myself again..i learnt my lessons...and pulled back in time.. to refrain myself to go deep..hmm.. what else.. i played alot this year.. did alot of stupid things.. got myself retained..why dun i ever learnt.. just becos i get 12 points for Os.. by just studying the last min.. i tot i can do the same thing again in jc? how wrong i am.. retaining is the best testimonial... in this sch..mjc.. 36% retain.. and i think 4% kick out... see.. new school.. strict rules.. our batch setting the standard of this sch.. so?~ the school sarcrifices our happiness.. ever since i came to this school...i haven been really happy..what? sick for so many times in this school.. what? cried almost everyday one week before promos..of cos after promos..after knowing i retain.. started to think.. what if i am in srjc.. things will be so different..i will be happier with my friens there..nearer to my house.. no waking up early..no crying.. no retain.. but whats the use of saying all of these? its too late..and i have no chance of returning to the past..what more.. chinese A level is over.. and my handphone got stolen.. another stupid things is.. mr tng.. that idiot.... talk to mi as if i am discriminating him.. and he is trying to defend himself..what the fuck he wants..now that sulin is leaving.. cecilia my best friend is leaving.. n ziting n cherri is leaving..what the bloody point of staying.. sometimes i really feel like just quiting these sch..haha.. see.. srjc having holidays now.. we?~ mjc?~ lol.. yeahz.. we stil have bloody lessons until 19..yeahz 19th nov.. poor thing? yahz.. but.. we are used to it..its the FATES... and hell.. i am paying it..half hope that i din do " so well" for my Os.. so my mum wun force mi to leave srjc...whatever...sometimes we must really wait till we lost something precious then we noe how to treasure it.. have you ever meet this situation whereby... someone who likes you.. but u avoided the person.. but ltr when the person doesn't like you or gotten over you already.... then u started to regret..and found out that actually you like the person? hmm..i think this kinda feeling sucks.. and it could nv have a happy ending between you n the person.. its.. afterall.. you who forsaken the person first.. its your retribution.. or have you met with this situation whereby.. there is someone who treats you real well...cares for you and stuffs.. and u are aware that he likes you... but you find that u can treat the person as well as the person treat you.. its sucks rite? being caught in the dilemma and stuffs.. or have you been caught in such a situation when there are friends around you who are in pain.. troubled.. caught up.. yet.. you dunoe how to help them? and you wish u could just ease their pain.. seeing them being sad.. you yourself become as sad too.. and you always find yourself praying for them... including the person you like.. hoping that they have happiness...
question.. do i like anyone now? i seriously dunoe..
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:06 PM