Wednesday, September 29, 2004
gomen ne.. chotto nihongo o wakateru.. demo watashi no nihongo wa waruii desu ne.. kyowa watashi no feeling wa tanoshii janai... koishiteru no feeling wa hajime ni wa tanoshii.. demo ima wa.. tanoshii ja nai... doushite ano sa? moshimo anata no nihongo o kii dekimasu.. anata wa wakateru.. hai.. watashi wa baka desu.. baka desu...
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11:37 PM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
another day of torture...during morning assembly.. mi and sulin received the news to go see mr yeow our civil tutor during recess.. okay fine.. ms chio also ask mi to see her.. fine.. anywae.... during recess.. we went to talk to mr yeow.. he asked us why we were absent.. then sulin replied.." stomachache?" with a question tone.. hahaa.. fine.. mr yeow was half assumed and half unhappy that we actualy pon school.. cos he noe us quite well lah.. then he start giving us a talk on why we shouldn't pon school.. we see that he is understanding.. cos the fact that he finds the school not giving mi a study break and teaching so much subjects in one year.. then sulin started complaining about the sch.. no study leave.. teaching new topic.. we always beening so tired in school.. cant concentrate during lecture.. go sch waste of time.. stay at home can achieve more.. looking at her.. her eyes were red.. yeahz..with tears.. suddenly. i feel the same as her.. we were being ill treated.. no life.'. just study.. go home.. slp.. come sch study.. haix.. i cant even concentrate during lessons.. i can do much more at home.. more productive.. was complaining to mr yeow... den half laughing.. den complaining.. started crying myself too.... the school doesn't understand our plight..haix.. then mr yeow was consoling us.. advicing us to juggle between revision n studies.. haix.. i dun quite agree to what he say.. cos i cant do it.. i just cant stand the fact that i am only slping 5 hours plus everdya when i need 10 hours.. look what jc had done to mi.. i am taking 3As level subject.. not4As.. yet the time i spent in sch is equivalent to srjc 4As subject manz... what the hell isizt? i rather stay in srjc.. i understand that fact that.. its good to learn more now.. then to suffer during j2.. BUT whats the bloody use of not getting promoted?! and in the end...i will still waste one more year.. should have gone poly instead? haix.. i dunoe..sometimes i really dun feel like studying.. just giving it up.. but yet.'. i know i cant.. so i pushed myself to go on n on n on.. to the point of breaking down.. i have nv studied so hard in my life before.. during sec sch.. i was happy go lucky.. slacker.. stoner.. now i have reduced myself to a mugger.. so unlike mi.. but i noe i have to become a mugger.. cos if not.. i will be throw far behind..and i dun wan tat to happen.. haix.. so.. during biology lesson.. mr yeow said somehting like " AATTAA" pronouced as "atah~!!!" the fighting sound when u hit something.. i now mr yeow din mean it to be funny actually.. but i duno why.. i suddenly started laughing.. then tears filled my eyes.. and rolled down my cheek.. i dunnoe what the F is going on.. then wee keat n da quan saw.. they were quite shocked.. quickly wipe away... haix.. people say.. you will be easily tickled if u are under stress.. i think i am.. saw ziting today also look like she is under great stress.. and going thru depression.. hey.. ziting.. buck up k? you are not alone...!!! then stayed back in school to study until 9 today.. so tired... now i asking charis over to share my pizza with mi.. waiting for her.. :)
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10:25 AM
luna 15th
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8:17 AM
distortion...by lena
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8:16 AM
the light of mystery ( by lena)
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8:16 AM
Monday, September 27, 2004
sorry guys>> this entry is the relive stress.. its rated M-18.. so if u are not 18.. dun read.. it polluted your mind.. as it served as a propaganda.... here it goess....fUcked up school! i hate it.. today i pon school.. why? becos we have no study leave like many other fucking jcs.. what kinda school is this? are they gonna torture us until we drop dead? yeah.. good.. chocked us.. suffocate us with all mountains of work load? yeahz!!! hahaha! yah.. good stress us.. then we all drop dead.. you guys have less students.. which means less work for you guys to do.. sulin.. mi.. eugena... pon together siaz... then cecilia also leave sch half way.. thats what you get if u wanna push us further...hahaa... the b.i.t.c.h from the office called mi today.. and ask mi to give mc.. i dun have.. what u wan mi to do? expel mi? becos i dun have mc? expel loh.. then my mum can sue your f. school.. hahaha....heard that tmr.. you people are going to check our mc.. and u guys would discover i dun have one.. what am i gonna say? erm.. sulin suggested.." i studied until 6 am yesterday.. no energy.." thats a nice one sulin..hahahhaa.. yeah i am crazy.. whatever...
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9:56 PM
lets hope this mark be there eternally..
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3:19 AM
Sunday, September 26, 2004
today was one of the most hectic day ever.. been studying for the whole day.. ever since i woke up.. so yeah study study study.. got rest lah.. but feeling like i am going to break down le..then until about 945... wei sms mi and ask if i can come out in a whiletime..i replied can.. cos i also need to walk around to take a break...so at 1020 he sms mi to come out... when i met him at the basketball court.. he covered my eyes and walked mi over to the somewhere...and let go of his hands... i got a shock... on the floor was " i (heart) u" made out of the white buffet wax cravings... i stood there... looking.. unable to describe how touched i was.... wei passed mi a lighter.. asking mi to light it up.. i am scared of the lighter.. lol.. dunoe how to use mah.. then he light it up for mi instead... it's so beautiful! i (heart) u words were on fire.... the fire lighted up the dark surrounding.. as if lifting up all my stress...then he brought out fire crackles! we played fire crackers... everything's so perfect and wonderful... soon.. its time for us to go home.. as it was late.. and gotta rest~! wei>> thank you for everything.. you make my life whole...:)
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11:44 PM
Eyes On Me
have u got a song which u are able to listen to it for 500 times everday... and u wun get sick of it at all... that's your theme song... i believe that everyone should have a theme song in their life.. which represents the inner self...
my theme song is " Eyes On Me" by Faye Wong... theme song for Final Fantasy 8... theres a little short story behind this song..here it goes..
There's this man named Laguna.. who always sit in a corner admiring the girl on stage singing.. the beauty is Julia... Julia knows about his presence... and invited him to her room for a chat.. Julia told Laguna that she wrote a song for him and wanted to sing it for him... however... this is fateful point of time... Laguna received an assignment and gotta leave.. leaving Julia behind.. Laguna promised that he will be back.. yet.. he was too late.. Julia got married with a General... due to some situation..and gave birth to a lovely kid..after many years.. Julia passed away.. and Laguna came back.. to find that Julia is already gone.....
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
whenever said my words
wishing the would be heard
i saw you smiling at me
was it real or just my fantasy
you'd always be there in the corner
of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
same old songs, just once more
my last night here with you
maybe yes.. maybe no
i kind of liked it your way
how you shyly placed your eyes on me
oh, did you ever know?
that i had mine on you
DArling, so there you are
with that look on your face
as if you're never hurt
as if you're never down
shall i be the one for you
who pinches you softly but sure
if frown is shown then
i will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you
close as i wanted to be
close enough for me
to feel your heart beating fast
and stay there as i whisper
how i loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
that i had mine on you
darling, so share with me
your love if you have enough
you tears if you're holding back
or pain if that' what it is
how can i let you know
i'm than the dress and the voice
just reach me out then
you will know that you're not dreaming...
many times when i am feeling down...i would always listen to this song...kinda put mi into a trance... casting all my worries away... it so comfortable to be able to listen to it all day long... it comforting to know that u have a song of your own...
when u love someone, you should let the person know that you care.. or else he/she will just pass you by.. and may never return....
living in regret is the worst feeling one can ever have...
so i dun wan to leave my life with any regrets...
so.. what's your theme song?
butterfly yearns to soar high......
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11:38 PM
the moment when your eyes is on me..
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3:39 AM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
yAOshENG~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! hahahaha.. thanks for inviting mi to your bbq.. before going to the bbq.. met up with wei.. want mi to help him wrap present..wei>> i can tell that.. you are not veyr gd at wrapping woh~ from the way u wrap the candles.. hahaha.. then he accompanied mi to the dentist.. gotta fix my teeth.. the dentist said that my teeth is quite str8 already.. cant even tell which teeth is crooked.. lol~!! yeah.. which means that i only need to "ren" for a few more months lalalaa.. then we to white sands together.. just nice he also have bbq at pasir ris park.. while mine is at chalet tehre... then at the bbq met some new friends.. joanne.. spen.. cui shan.. and many more.. lol..quite nice people.... drank a little there.. cos yaosheng offered mi heineken beer.. hee..hee.. but din get drunk! i am not that bad at drinking k.. but i am a social drinker lah.. played poker cards ..ate... chit chat.. and stuffs.. time for mi to go home~ yao sheng and another guy walked mi to the entrance there.... at first the guy wanted to give mi a ride to white sands so i can take the 53 from there.. but quite late le.. so said good bye to both of them.. and i took a separate cab home alone....cos i dun think have bus liaoz.. then also abit dangerous siaz.. lol! hahaha.. yeahz.. so tired siaz..
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2:17 AM
Friday, September 24, 2004
wooHOO~ long time nv blog liaoz...friday mahz.. so must take chance to blog..hee hee~ today was studying in school.. den borrowed a maths textbook from library! finally.. i have a maths text book.. lol! then went to meet kexian and pris.... KEXIAN>> HAPPY BIRTHDAY! MUAUKZ!! I LOVE YA!!!... HEE HEE!~then we bought a cake and sang her a bday song.. then we chat up a bit.. saw cOACH!! hahahaha.. he so cute lah.. bought us dinner and coffee..then was talking to us about his life.. how he do business.. ltr company was busted...then how he become busted too... marriage life turned sour.. child problem..lotsa of things.. all these he have been through..yet he is still strong... determined to live his life better... became a coach... motivate people.. aspire them.. and stuffs.. he taught us how he came back to his feet.... the process of falling.. and standing up again.. encouraged us not to give up in our midst of education... coach> thanks for encouraging us!! hee hee... then i and pris went to the study area opposite macdonalds..hee.. then studied integration... got hungry.. so pris went to buy 20 pieces of nugget and fudge ice cream.. lalala.. study and study.. then rest.. and chat.. so long nv chat with my darling pris liaoz.. so happy..
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11:57 PM
before going out..
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7:35 PM
heeZ....
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7:34 PM
The reason to be on the Earth
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7:33 PM
FOOTPRINTS
one night a man had a dream.
he dreams he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand
One belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also notived taht it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, You said that once i decided to follow You, You's walk with me all th way, But i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints, i don't understand why when i needed you most you would leave me"
The Lord replied," My son, my precious child, i love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when your see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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10:57 AM
Monday, September 20, 2004
The walking zombie
the walking zombie reigned the morning today.. had a damn swollen eyes.. i had to put down my fringe.. wear my specs.. disguise the ugly mi...and my ugly eyes... to create a facade to protect myself.. the heartaching feeling is still there and it has controlled my souless body...physcially and mentally tired.. dunoe what to do... but... despite being like this... i wanna thank you for not forsaking mi.. for being by my side.. to stand my temper.. and never lose your temper at all.. i know u feel down.. for making mi feel that way.. yet u were encouraging and supported me all the way.. consoled mi.. and healed mi.. u tried to compromise with mi.. to make mi feel better.. u held my hand..and made everything possible.. thank you for your love..and i wanna tell u.. i feel the same as you...
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:03 PM
Sunday, September 19, 2004
I dun mean what i said..
went out for movie today then went home.. changed and attended a wedding dinner.. at the dinner.... i drank a glass of red wine with empty stomach.. felt abit sei liaoz.. there is one chinese saying.." jiu bu jui ren ren zi jui" meaning wine doesn't make u drunk.. its only you can make yourself drunk... how true.. felt very terrible.. why am i feeling this way.. just like going back to the past.. the past.. now...the present.. i din cherish what i have now.. yet i said things that i din mean it at all..things like.. i only like u a little bit.. things like.. i dun care.. things like wanting to forget u.. NO! NO! i dun mean it.. not even a bit....i am feeling unhappy cos i am jealous.. i am sad cause its like going back to the past.. i teared becos i care... i drink becos i dun wan to leave you.. i cried becos i need you..i m so aware of how i feel.. that i cant simply just put it at the back of my head.. yes.. love hurts.. if it doesn't hurt... its not love...now i understand how pain it is... but i dun meant wat i say... i dun mean to be cold.. i dun mean to shun u away.. i hate myself.. i hate the feelings.. i hate sharing.. i hate the world.. i hate everything..
-wanna get you outta my head-
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11:45 AM
Saturday, September 18, 2004
sevene act cool
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4:55 AM
saturday! wah! so shuang.. can slp late late.. so long nv slp until late liaoz.. lol.. went to the modelling agency- create talents... lame lah.. the agency.. cos i already got a portfolio.. then i told them say i got one .. then they say they dun want.. they wan their own.. cos they also wan to promote their photographer and make up artist.. hey.. when customer give u an assignment.. high high high chances are that they will provide their own makeup artist and photographers.. and not the talent agency one.. a bit lame.. i heard until i wan to laugh.. but of cos.. must appear friendly.. lol~ so i listen n listen.. then i left there.. thinking that its lame... the office is also abit run down.. abit only lah.. abit..really abit.. lol! do u sense sarcasism? hee hee.. then i went home.. slp slack rest.. so happy.. since been a while i have some rest.. met ah wei at about 9 o clock.. sat there at the basketball court.. just slack.. talk.. so comfortable to be with him... time pass so fast.. until 3 plus.. woh.. hahaha.. happy times are the best! hee..heee. then we went home..
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4:25 AM
sevene the cinderalla (cosplay)
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1:29 AM
Reflections
Look at me You may think you see who I really am But you'll never know me Every day, is as if I play apart Now I see If I wear a mask I can fool the world But I can not fool my heartWho is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? When will my reflection show Who I am inside?I am now In a world where I have to hide my heart And what I believe in But somehow I will show the world What's inside my heart And be loved for who I amWho is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection someone I don't know? Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside?There's a heart that must be free to fly That burns with a need to know the reason whyWhy must we all conceal What we think How we feel Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?I won't pretend that I'm Someone else For all time When will my reflections show Who I am inside? When will my reflections show Who I am inside?
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1:08 AM
sevene as lenne aka yuna
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12:28 AM
mi at natsu matsuri
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12:25 AM
Friday, September 17, 2004
deh~.... i am so tired!!! had lessons in school.. then recess time ate chocolate pocky and copied hw.. hee~hee.. i am so hardworking hor.. then had lessons again.. slept during bio lesson.. too tired! feel very dead.. then during the 2 hour lunch break.. my group went to chiong pw again. then nv eat.. hahaha.. so stressed.. kept having tears coming out of my eyes..until ren bu zhu.. then went toilet to cry.. hahaha... felt better than came back smiling liaoz.. then fINALLY! our pw is done!!!so happy..went to mr chew class late... luckily he din get angry.. then guess what.. the teacher told us that pw hand up on monday.. -.-" i have no commentz lahz..after school.. our group had a consultationg with our pw teacher.. it was a fast n short consultation.. lol.. she told us that two of the guys literally came down on their knees to extend the deadline.. all of us were quite shocked lah... we handed up our pw.. while the rest of the class will hand in on monday.. meaning.. we will be having an advantage..:) lalalala~then ah wei came to meet mi and we went home together.. yeah!! homE!!! i went to bed at once.. lol!!! butbutbut! only slp for half an hour.. so sad.. nvm.. then eat.. bath.. watch tv.. went to slp again.. until 9.. then met him to go pasa malam together... walk walk.. and sat down at the basketball court to talk... then went home... slp... hahahaa.. :)
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2:05 AM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
in school today.. discussing about pw about lesson.. so discuss discuss discuss.. then plan who do what task....ah Wei came to look for mi at the busstop outside my school...then we went home together... he leave near my house mah.. lol.. then we chat on the way home.. took a few pictures on the bus.. then he walked mi home...................................................................................................
so stressed!!! tonight must chiong finished my pw! must do the proposal and the evaluation of proposal.. okay..but i am so tired.. must chiong finished.. or else tmr sure die.. so did my work.. until about going to 2 o clock..i am so beat! luckily finished le.. so i went to slp.. i even thinking of pw in my dreams manz.. wahahahhaha! of cos din slp well..ZZzzzZZzz... u will see a panda girl~
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2:26 AM
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
woohoo~ in school today.. so sick lah.. kept sneezing.. heh.. also have sinus when tired.. same old thing.. so friends.. no need to be worried k? winkX... a short day in school today!! woh! first time for a long time since i had a short day.. hahahha! feels great to leave school eariler..:~)
so met li wei at my house to busstop there.. for lunch~ we walked all the way to iman's roti prata place.. hee.. i ordered 1 honey prata.. and 1 cheese prata.. while liwei ordered 1 chocolate prata and tissue!! tissue is also a kind of prata.. they also sell plaster!! at first i tot it was the sticky kinda plaster which u stick at your wound.. but!! its also a kinda prata.. so cute..~also ordered teh peng.. hahhaa.. both of us like to drink ice milk tea.... had a little chat.. showed him my pictures in the camera.. hahhaa.. then we took some pictures together.. but turn up not very nice.. nvm! next time we take again! then ltr we walked back.. it was drizzling... luckily liwei got bring umbrella..then i suggest we walk in the rain.. cos liwei was sheltering mi with the umbrella lah. and he is not really shelthering himself.. plus.. i love the rain~ he too.. so we walked in the rain.. lol.. maybe other people may think tt we are crazy.. lol.. talk on the way.. about drinking... about the coming outing.. and stuffs.. then he sent mi to my condo entrance.. then he went off to meet his friend..then i went home.. slpt until 7.. woohoo~ its been a long time since i taken a afternoon nap.. happiness~~~~
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11:31 PM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
hahaha.. today met up with ahwei i know from wholivesnearyou.. met him after school about 8pm at the basketball court at the back of my house to play bball~woohoo~~he quite good looking woh..shy shy de..den realise that he knew my neighbour, daryl.. daryl dun rem mi liaoz.. sad siaz!.. so had a little chat with my neighbour to let him recall who i am.. lol~ orh.. anywae.. really fun.. we start off by playing ABC.. so long nv play bball other than PE lesson le..and so long nv play in the night liaoz.'. so very comfortable.. heeZ! ahwei! daryl!next time play together again! we played against three more guys.. so funy.. they dun dare block mi.. so i had the benefit of shooting without much difficulty.. lol..then after game.. we rested there.. chat up abit...then he walked mi back home.. so sweet.. thanks sweetie~ heeZ~
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11:16 PM
Saturday, September 11, 2004
today imanini noi noi noi left singapore... to canada..woke up at 6 plus.. to go airport send him.. was quite sad lah.. cos now like quite good friends with noi liaoz.. then he leaving.. but he will be back on december!! which is soon!!! so!! will have to wait to see ya again! yeah?! lol.. wrote him a card..had a little msg inside.. and full of pictures of the happy memories the gang had together.. noi> if u happen to see this bloggie!!! msg for ya>>> rem to take care k??? mish ya.. and i will take care of your dear for ya! lol..
took pictures together.. and hugs.. finally when he walked through the gates... we all waved until he disappeared behind the duty free shops.. reluctantly.. we went away.. mi.. kingston.. charis.. her two cousins.. went to macs to study.. cherin came to meet mi.. we studied all the way from 10+ to 6.. woh!!! okay lah.. at least i understand what going on in ionic now.. although i cant finish it..heh~ i must work hard! sulin!!! lena!! we must all work hard together k? dun give up!!! jia you!!!!!!!! and friends who are looking thru my friendster.. remember.. what your mind can perceive and conceive.. you can achieve... aim for the moon so even if u fall u will fall among the stars.. .. mind is a powerful thing.. use your mind to the fullest advantage.. good luck my friends@ muakz!
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9:11 PM
Friday, September 10, 2004
A man went to a barber shop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.They talked about so many things and various subjects When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don'tbelieve the God exists.""Why do you say that?" asked the customer."Well, you just have to go out in the streetto realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists,would there be so many sickpeople? Would there be abandoned children?If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.Just after he left thebarbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "You know what?Barbers do not exist." "How can yousay that?" asked the surprised barber. "Iam here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!" "No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did,there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside." "Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber. " What happens, is,people do not come to me. ""Exactly!"- affirmed the customer. "That'sthe point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don't go toHim and do not look for Him.That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
i got this little story from a friend.. hope this gives you some aspiration..:)
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11:31 AM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
weeeHEEE! met up with my srjc friends today.. ryan.. derek.. jiayue.. jingwen.. aloysius.. doreen.. flora..huiting.. watched this movie.." raising helen" manz! at first i tot this show is going to be boring.. actually turned out to be quite nice... very funny.. and romantic.. the pastor in the show is really so handsome.. and charming! after movie.. we had a hard time deciding where to go to slack before arriving to the decision to go to the food court for some food. well.. ryan again!!! ate two serving..-.-" what a giant manz.. no commentz...then we talked about our lives there.. wah laoz.. tpjc timetable to superb manz.. 3As..end at about 2 everyday!!! everyday! mjc life.. and tpjc lives.. drastic difference siaz..-.-"sadden.. maybe i might retain siaz.. i dun wan to retain sia! jia you!! :P actually wanted to meet lester and susan for bible study one.. but lester got feng mo~those kinda rashes that u will develop if your sking cannot withstand the wind blowing.. hmm.. then i went home.. lester> hope u get well soon ya!! :)
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9:58 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
woke up at the wrong side of the bed.. got sinus loh.. so sianz siaz.. then went to sch and chemistry remedial.. and go to jurong island to see the oil plants.. mobil.. sumitomo corporation... blah blah blah..btw.. mr yeow came back from london le.. i think 12 hours of flight..lol.. then had a bus tour ride in jurong island.. and the tour guide told us that the small catus plot causes 3-4 million!!! 3-4 MILLION! foR THAt small catus garden.. omg.. rather spent that on flowers.. than catus... manz.. lol... anywae.. went up to the building to look at the exibits.. tell us more about that stuffs that is going on in jurong island.. the purpose of it.. the reclamation of the island.. BUTBUTBUT! i went there before liao lah.. the second time there.. so was sianz.. somemore having sinus...>..< hee hee~ then went home.. actually wanted to meet sulin for dinner and study one.. but luckily got kenneth accompany.. so i din go! after tat.. charis called mi to go noi's house.. yeah.. noi is leaving for canada soon.. will be so sad lah.. haix... anywae.. noi opened a bottle of ice wine for us.. taste really nice..have this sweet taste.. something like port or sherry..then had dinner with kingston.. charis.. gary.. noi.. suen..lol..chit chat and slack around..after that we played cards.. daidee.. in noi's room.. then afraid that it will be too loud.. so went to the living room instead..then i and kingston lie on the small crouch bed in the living room.. suen+gary=couple.. charis+noi=couple.. then mi and kingston.. lol.. nvm.. we stick together..or else damn bored loh.. see both couple hanky pankying... lol..then gary n suen decided that they want to slp on the small bed mi n kingston is on.. so they chiong us lah.. then pull.. pushed.. tickled us out of the bed.. -.-" manz.. nvm..then i and kingston went to the bedroom.. leavin the two couple in the living room.. kingston slp on the floor.. i on the bed.. lol.. then ltr krystal and her bf came.. so they came to the bedroom.. and iman n charis jumped into the bed lah.. crushing mi.. then next came gary and su en.. i am flattened..-.-"luckily quickly queezed out.. leaeving iman n gary there.. lol! so fun loh.. like play around.. soon.. gary and suen and kingston n krystal n bf gotta go.. so i stayed back.. waiting for charis to go home together.. then i went to the room and rest.. waiting for charis.. lol.. but!!!! i FELL ASLP!! i know iman came in before.. then i wokeup.. sleepily.. walked to him.. then say.. "ohoh.. i go outside.." then he say.."dun need.. go back slp go back slp.." then i replied.." oh.. then i walked back and slp.. lol.. i din even noe lah..-.-" then i woke up at 3 again! oh man! so late le siaz.. then i went out to see.. both of them were in the living room slping together.. oh sweet! lol.. then veyr unwillingly.. we went home.. lol.. mummy got scold lah.. of cos.. but dun care! so fun! heee!!!!
Reality Sucks Big Time
4:51 AM
woke up at about 12.. then called Lester up.. he is still doing pig loh.. fine.. then let him slp again.. until about 2.. then call him to wake him up.. he is still in his piggy voice... then ltr we met at yio chu kang.. he made mi waited for him for 45 minutes.. thanks ah lester.. >.<... nvm.. hahaha.. then went to his school.. nyp..met selphie and we studied together.. although we din really study.. hahaha.. wen to the food court to eat.. the gecko meal.. i order black pepper chicken.. not bad leh.. not that ex also lah.. lol!! then selphie went home... i and lester went to town wanting to catch a movie.. but unfortunately.. all the show are showing at 9 plus.. which is quite late.. cos might not have any train home ltr.. so we went to take neoprint instead! manz! the new machine is damn cool! got this comfy sofa to sit on..we took a few pose.. like back to back.. talking on the phone.. act cute pose.. and one pic is.. i sitting in front.. n he at the back.. then decorated the pic.. so nice.. pink back ground+colourful bubbles at the side+ beaded like words forming the date..+ warm-looking lights brightening the pic.... next pic is.. a garden back ground.. lester sittin behind.. i in front.. each of us wearing this crown.. macham king n queen.. okay.. jkjk! lo. hot pink flowers surronding..and colourful flowers all around.. nice siaz... there are more.. but too nice to describe le... hee..so after taking neoprint.. we decided that we cant resist the temptation of the sweet shop.. so we went in to buy sweets.. bleahz.. like little children.. went to kino!! saw the magazine" seventeen" i couldn't take my eyes off the japanese sch girl man.. i feel like a lesbian siaz... lol!!! jk!!bought the magazine in the end and walked down to cineleisure to grab a bite.. we talked off quite abit.. about religion..about friends.. about life.. about clothes.. lol.. was quite nice to just slack siaz.. anywae..orchid from wilhemina called.. and told mi that my profile was selected for an advertisement for somehting.. but haven confirm yet.. so she will confirm with mi tmr.. if she confirm with mi.. means that i am not in.. so yeahz.. just pray that i get in? lol.. i do hope i get in.. can gain some experiences.. earn money.. and stuffs.. cross fingers for mi yeahz? haahaa..but i ain't gonna put high hope lah.. just see loh.. then we walked around.. and went home..
Reality Sucks Big Time
1:45 AM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
what a night... i have opened my heart to two person.. who is a guy whom i used to liked quite much.. cos he was there when i decided to leave the guy... i told him that i used to liek him alot..but that was the past.. he feels the same too.. but i am glad that we opened our hearts.. which means there weren't be any secrets between us.. lol.. friends yeah? another was..these guy who like mi.. for i think about 9 months le ba.. he made a confession which make my heart melt lah.. but i am still confused.. i dunoe lah.. also dun wish to think so much... so yeahz.. gonna sort out my feelings first..and!! got myself a part time stead... dun tell you who... lol..:P
oh what a flirtatious girl i am.. jkjk! tata!
Reality Sucks Big Time
1:36 AM
Monday, September 06, 2004
i woke up early today!!! to do my GP compo.. sianz siaz.. then my mother fetch mi to heartland mall.. so i stayed there and studied there.. alone.. did some maths.. then sms my father asking his whereabouts.. he is also somewhere near heartland.. so we met.. then went to take neoprint.. my daddy so cute siaz.. teach him how to pose.. lol! then we decorated the neoprints.. he drew a money sign($).. on his stomach...funny lah..then went home.. felt very sad when reading a book.. nowdays had this feeling coming back to mi.. why am i thinking of him? i should have forgotten him.. i tot i can forget him totally.. why did i think of him.. pls God.. help mi..let mi forget him.. dun let mi go back to the old self.... its good to be single.. since i have been single all my life.. yet.. why is there still an empty feeling deep down here.. waiting for someone to come fill it up.. wtf.. f it lahz...
to sulin>> sulin dear.. if u are reading this.. i would like to tell you that.. i do cherish you as my good friend... i hope that our friendship dun only exist in school.. i would liek to enter your life even outside school.. that will be the day when u confide into mi.. dun be afraid that i will laugh at you and despise you or whatever.. cos i will not.. no matter what.. i hope to be there for you when u need mi to.. cheers my dear.. :)
Reality Sucks Big Time
7:09 PM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
went out with pris.. noi.. charis.. and king.. lol.. got a new nick for noi..that will be man tou( bun).. cos we were saying something like.. calling him "man1".. so ltr suddenly chang his nick to man tou.. whilst he is da man tou.. kingston will be xiao man tou.. and charis will be man tou saoz.. cute siaz.. btw.went to church today.. at kingston's church.. its about some singing.. and a skit.. and followed by bro sammuel's praise... lol...he mentioned about
have you ever think that.. where is God when u need him.. doubt his presence and ability.. if there is a God.. he will not allow deaths of your loved ones to happen.. but why is bad things always happening to you.. like a death of your loved ones.. or problems seems to arose.. one thing.. God did not plan the Earth to be like this.. we are all sinners.. and death.. pain.. suffering are the products of sin.. only thry receiving Christ would u be able to come to the gates of heaven and enjoy a life with God..from the bible.. its says that God will only work for those who truly believe in him... there sometimes.. you just feel that u cannot carry on.. or.. you had suffered.. God isn't there to help you... that is when u did not put your trust n faith in him.. so.. try.. have faith in him.. pray to him.. tell him your problems.. cos He is the almighty one who u can rely on..if your trust him.. and believe in him.. he will carry you thru difficult periods of time.. for He sent his one n only begotten son down to earth to die on the cross for us... who will do tt for ya? :)
we went to eat at ramen tei... noi order this spicy chicken ramen.. his whole face turned red manz.. so funny.. bought tickets for harold and kumar.. the hamburger show.. before going into the cinema.. as the movie is M-18.. man tou got asked by the usher how old he is..
"how old are you?" usher prompted..
"18.." replied mantou/iman
"born in which year?"
"85..." iman replied almost immediately..
lucky thing is that the usher nv ask mi n pris.. or else we wun be able to ans that fast.. and start counting years manz..and charis was also kanna asked by the usher.. as charis was smsing on her phone.. she appeared to ber very blur of whats going on.. lol.. luckiyl she pass off as well.. then kingston also kana.. then he said.." all of us here 18.." then the usher let us in.. lame siaz. lol.. the show is full of vulgarities.. so damn funny lah! then went to see clothes.. i just bought this long sleeve shirt.. damn nice.. lol.. iman was trying clothes in top men.. however did not find anythign which he like alike.. so din buy after afterall.. so yah went to walked around./.
then i .. kingston and pris went to eat kfc.. lol.. then go home le...
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:45 PM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
cool~~~ finally another week has passed!!! saturday again! which means..! my test is over liaoz! wahahahaha! today test quite easy.. lol... not bad siaz..i am going to start on sidney sheldon book today!!! sulin say its damn nice.. i will read it today! i love books! so got nice books.. intro mi hor?but i prefer horror.. fantasy.. thriller.. yah.. dun really read romance..yesterday had basketball elective games..very fun.. feel like playing basketball.. mr eric teaches very useful stuffs about techniques... the pick and roll... set up.. and screening.. hope to learn more from him..was studying the whole day yesterdya.. damn stressed siaz.. but luckily today its all over.. gotta catch up with some of you guys... cos din come online for a while le.. yeahz.. so people! take care yah..
-butterfly's wings feel numb-
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:43 AM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
haven been blogging these few days.. was so busy with my school work that i cant even afford time to come online.. just finshed this interesting book..." House Of Thunder" by Koontz... the plot is really witty, capturing your attention page after page....and had an unexpected twist at the ending..you guys should try to read the book yah? hee.. my friend sulin just lent mi another story book.. by sidney charlton.. io think spelt liek this lol..hahahhaa.. btw.. i am gonna start reading it after saturday.. sat got test again lah.. dunoe why my life suck until so jia lat.. hate it loh..think i like reading better than coming online.. nothing to do.. lol.. perhaps blogging to inform my friends what i have been doing.. but anyone comes to see this blog? maybe a few.. so guys.. when u come.. just leave a tag.. so that i noe that u actually care ya? lol.. jkjk..
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:44 PM