Sunday, August 29, 2004
got test in school today... after that went home to eat.. came back to sch.. then had chinese orchestra practice.. today teacher damn angry.. becos the people was late and even requested for him to treat them.. so well.. after that.. he okay liaoz.. then we went on with practise..really happy when i came home.. cos liang kai came back from thailand to singapore... then he came to visit us.. we used to live under the same roof.. cos he came here to study when he was young.. and then went back to thailand.. its been so long the last time i seen him... so yeah.. ~intoxicated~
hee..hee.. went to the dental to get my braces fixed and tightened... met up with some ex srjc friends... saw da quan and eugena on the way to suntec.. finally had dinner at food junction after walking all over the place to find a cheap and short queue place to eat.. lol..then went to slack at starbucks.. ryan was telling us about his life in mjc..how birthday boys got "chionged" by the other people.. they pull up the birthday boy's underwear and over his head.. sothat it will stretch and tear.. lol.. ryan also kana it in the lecture.. wahahahhaa..birthday boys with layers of bread and whipped cream in between.... another one was the bombing of each other in the toilet.. "toilet door closing in 5 seconds.. people who want to have fun.. pls enter now!!!" then well.. u dun really wan to noe whats happening inside.. hee..hee... then was talking about jc and poly life.. until around 10plus.. then went home..
yeahz.. anywae... my friend Noi Noi is going back to Canada i think soon.. two more weeks...sister is going to spain to work the week after next...yeahz.. yeahz.. damn sad can....
Reality Sucks Big Time
12:37 AM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
stayed back in school today after lesson.. was waiting for the rehearsal for soiree.. and it's raining..so we cant rehearse outdoor.. but nvm.. we did indoors.. and it was quite good! ^^.. hope to do better on that day.. support us k? sianz sia.. nothing much to say..
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7:28 PM
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
today lost my handphone at the first period in the lecture threatre.. was so nervous and frightened what if its gone! i ran around looking for it..fortunately.. when i called my hp.. using sihong's phone.. the person who picked up the phone and ask mi to collect it at e2-3..went to collect it from him.. what a nice person.. my saviour.. lol..thank you whoever you are!!
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7:21 PM
Monday, August 23, 2004
super sad today can.... my darling meikwan left singapore liaoz.. our whole class went to send her off at the airport... so woke up at 5 o clock.. to steam pau for her..then prepare myself.. went to fetch nancy and faeez on the way..was feeling so damn tired.. i din sleep the last night.. insomia!!! dunoe why.. so many things must be sort out.. or else there will be confusion within myself.. well.. sort it out i guess..but still so damn sad.. meikwan...~~~
at the airport.. the whole class was taking pictures.. and giving her hugs..i passed her the pau.. then she was like...woh~ just nice.. got six pau.. one for each of my family.. was touched that she actually like it.. lol.. it's time for us to go.. yet.. it's so hard to say goodbye.. we gotta pull ourselves away from her.. suddenly i just broke down.. i couldn't stand smiling any more.. it's so hard.. i just went to one side and started crying.. and sulin started crying with me again...we comforted each other.. but it got worse.. went over and gave her a last hug.. and a kiss on her cheek... then ran away.. afraid to look at her leaving..was still crying.. non stop.. we got on the cab.. going back to school.. stupid sch.. i hate school.. on the cab.. the taxi driver was playing this very sad song.. and mi and sulin was like..-*soBS*-... cant describe how i really feel.. it just feels like a thousand knife is stabbed into my chest.. and it wun stop bleeding..the feeling of never healing..haix... i am still feeling pain now.. just pray that you will be alright and take care lots...
in school.. was feeling like a living dead zombie.. was freaking tired and exhausted.. the right term is.. physically and mentally exhausted... i cant think anymore. mind was so occupied.. even during biology.. i could stand and slp at the same time.. and after that was Soiree.. it's a performance to celebrate our school day.. "love meridian day".. i, lena... hafiz.. are gonna perform this jap song.. opun no tegami.. i love it lots!!! so had a little rehearsal and went to lena's house to choose clothes for her to wear!!! lol..then she put on some gothic makeup.. and we ate some food.. kim chee rocks.. very nice.. then she walked mi down wearing her costume and makeup.. heh.. scary siaz!! hope the poor neighbour are okay!!!
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:34 PM
tonight will be the last night meikwan will be staying in Singapore.. i am so gonna miss her lots!!! bought bao for her.. she loves bao.. lol! gonna steam it for her and bring it down to the airport tmr.. which means i gotta wakeup early at 5 o clock... yeah~ i think i wll cry like shit tmr loh..just came back home from serangoon gardens.. was with jason studying at coffee bean.. had to study loh.. must concentrate on studies..or else i dunoe how i am gonna get promoted to next year... my fren told mi about this girl telling her she dunt wan to retain.. the reason is not afraid of having to study one more year.'. but is the reason of dun wan to let her parents have to pay more money to support her education.. what a sweet girl..anywae.. i am jason was studying.. then ltr we started talking about christianty... the ten commandments which God laid.. some of which i could remember was... no worshipping of idols other than God.. no making of that kinda idol..hmm... God made heaven and earth for six days.. the seventh day he rested.. so its called the Sabbath day( isiizt spelt liek this??).. obey your parents...so on and so forth.. then got hungry so went to chomp chomp to grab a bite.. ate the fried oyster egg.. and sugar cane water.. still okay lah...then chatted a bit.. was feeling so confused about some stupid things...how liking someone is such a funny thing..irony in a way.. when a person is attract to a particular person..what is the factor which attracts you to that someone.. and would he be attracted to you.. in my case.. both parties are... i meant were attracted to each other.... yet...life is such an irony...the funny thing is.. one party noes about what is going on.. and another doesn't... so well.. i guess thats call fate...but nvm... i should be alright soon.. when i sort out my thinkings...and thank you jason.. for being there for mi when i am down.. cheers up!!! u take care too ya!!!
meikwan>> May God bless you in everything that you do..remember that 04s207 will be there for you when u need us...pls take care...keeping ya in my prayers... muakZ!!!
Reality Sucks Big Time
12:42 AM
Sunday, August 22, 2004
went school for test again.. this time is chemistry... yeah.. and know what? i hate the chem teacher.. got a teacher dunoe what name one.. keep ranting and throwing his weights.. damn irritating.. and i think he is a person who is acting slim.. grossed out by his stupid face.. feel like smacking him..oh well.. nvm.. after that decided to pon cca.. so sian..... so i went over to my grandma's house hoping that my aunt is there.. so i can bug her to make clothes... but so disappointing.. she ain't there.. then i went home.. rest.. bath.. dress up.. makeup....waited for yi qing to come home.. so she came over to my house.. and i trimmed her eye brows for her... put on foundation...blusher... mascara...and eye shadow.. hee!! help her make over.. lend her my earrings..damn sweet siaz.. lol.. i myself also did some makeup.. then went out to the changi japanese school..for summer festival.. its an annual event whereby they organise such event to celebrate summer.. lol.. there were alot of people wearing yukatas there... colourful lights and people dressed in japanese style.. stylish and beautiful.. on the stage were performances like dancing.. drums... line dance.. and much more.. the sides were lined with stores... selling icecream.. confectionary...comestic..pop corn..drinks..chicken wing.. okonomiyaki.. sausages.. yakitori.. and much more.. we spend much of our time queuing up for the chicken wings.. in the end.. we din even get to buy it.. too long the queue.. one of japanese tradition is to queue...in japan.. u can ask the person what is he queuing for.. he will reply.." i dunoe.. i see so many people queueing.. thats why i queue.." last time i went japan.. and the duration of a queue for a disney ride was about an hour.. thats how long the queue is manz! lol! back to summer festival...i and yi qing went to buy beer.. and had a drink.. we are able to hold liquor k!!! :P.. trained by our parents.. lol! spent all our money on yakitori.. quite nice.. sat down a while a rest.. while lester .. susan.. fagan.. and justin left the place to go play dead or alive.. forever one leh.. lester n fagan.. lol! anywae.. ltr jason called.. ask if we wan to go meet him to watch womad.. so we decided to go meet him.. enjoyed the womad performance.. its a percussion performance.. lots of rhythm n groove.. bleahz! then went home after that...bleahz.. how tiring!!!
Reality Sucks Big Time
1:01 AM
Friday, August 20, 2004
had a boring day in school today.. well..as usual... tmr still got chemistry test.. so after school suppose to meet jason to pass him money n study together.. he came to my school to fetch mi.. ah.. so sweet...~ then it was raining cats n dogs when we travelled to white sands... sat in the coffee place in the library and study.... then chatting and study at the same time.. waiting for lester to come.. he passed us gifts... i got a hp chain.. its a pink n purple beads chain witha small small attached to it.. super super sweet.. thanks lester muakz!!! jason got a wooden cross necklace... damn nice too.. lester so sweet... lol! he told us the gifts is a way to express his gratitude.. for being there for him during his difficult period of time.. lol! lester! no need to be so touch la.. i am sure i and jason dun expect any returns when we stand by you... well.. just stand by us when we need help.. thats already the best le.. ^^..after that we went to macs to accompany lester for dinner.. lester was joking about jason having a big mouth.. cos he stuff the whole ice cream cone into his mouth.. then i was doing the "ice cream" hand thing on him.. then he ran away.. haizya!!! i was so stress yesterday loh.. thats why keep talking nonsense.. lol.. but luckily jason n lester are there to accompany mi.. or i break down siaz!!! dunoe why keep feeling stress.. maybe becos of life. hate life.. still single.. not say i am i am yearning for a guy.. just that.. sometimes when i am lonely.. i do wish that there is someone there for mi whom i can rely on.. and gives mi support... just to lie on his shoulders.. or hug and cry when i am sad... all these years i have been supporting myself...whenever i have problem.. most of the times are to resolve it myself..sometimes i will talk to my friends about it.. but often.. it din really help in much way..i think.. perhaps the loneliness keeps coming and going.. perhaps its the feeling of yearning for someone to fill the emptiness.. yet... none has came.. oh well.. single is fun! i love to be single too! actually it doesn't really matter does it? to be single n attach... perhaps being attach is just a way to get rid of the loneliness.. is there really love or are just two parties seeking companionship to fill their lifes... does looks really matter? than why am i usually crush guys who has the aesthetical appeal? i love no one now.. i also dunoe who to love.. expect God.. oh well.. i shall just pray hard yeah!? let God provide(quoting jason)... and i believe one day.. i will find a guy JUst righT foR mi.. ^^
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:49 AM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
WheeHeee!~~ not a bad day today.. had lessons in school until 3 plus.. then half od our class people went to eat swensen together!! enjoyed the topless 5.. lol.. weekiat was saying that we should not eat it.'. cos its R(A) rated.. lol! topless 5 mah.. wahahhaa.. lame.. but funny lah... i realised something!!! Hafiz is a great friend of chocolate.. lol! and ice cream.. he finished like so many icecream and was craving for more.. :P did the exothermic reaction on hafiz.. and albert kpo and put his hand there. lol! sorry albert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol!!! both of them kana the icecream on their hand! lol! then after the whole thing.. i and sulin went to the library to study.. study until fall aslp! bleah!!! as usual... lol! saw da quan.. he haven left... lol!so went home after that.. watching singapore idol!!! tata!
Reality Sucks Big Time
9:10 PM
Monday, August 16, 2004
woke up at like 1 plus today.. bath n stuffs.. and rushed down to meet hafiz.. went shopping for a while in tampines mall.. saw this shirt.. i love it so much that i bought it almost immediately.. hee!!!then both of us rushed down to simei to meet lenore.. we were going to jam together later... i playing the keyboard.. hafiz the drummer.. and lenore the vocalist.. lol! playing miyavi- opun no tegami... i loved that song.. lenore filled in the lyrics herself.. nice!while travelling there.. it rain so heavily.. luckily by the time we finished our jamming.. the rain stop..^^so i went down to tampines mall again meet my pw group members.. we were late.. yah.. so i and lenore.. went back to the same shop to shop again.. tried on a few other clothes./. and bought another piece.. yeah.. in a shopping mood!!! lol!!! no money liaoz... ZZzzZZz...walked around and waited for them to come ... went to buy presents for a friend who is leaving...dunnoe why.. thinik of her and i will cry... sad... people who wish to noe more can ask mi... i wish her all the best...friend.. i love ya... take care k? muakz!
Reality Sucks Big Time
12:44 PM
God.. pls bless the one i love... really hard to say goodbye when the tears are clouding my eyes... may God bless you my beloved.. no matter where you are.. remember that u still have me here...
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:30 AM
Sunday, August 15, 2004
sickening.. cant believe my care n concern is considered being rude.. yah.. i am rude.. thanks...
Reality Sucks Big Time
2:39 AM
Had my biology test today.. it wasn't as bad.. considering the fact that i din really study much.. and i was doing the last minute work..so well.. see how the result turns out loh!!! ltr wen to compass point to meet my darling cecilia for some lunch... we ate and chat for awhile.. before i went for my cca... learnt some dizi skills today..and practise alittle of guzheng... the dizi teacher said that he enjoyed teaching us.. well! whihc is a good thing...!! hee hee! i enjoyed going for his lessons too.... slack for awhile in the cca room.. bad mouthing and gossiping about teachers to mr wang... and friends.. then went home.. waited for jason to come...both of us waited for around 3 hours for everyone to arrived.. lester!! u are the latest!! lol.. but of cos got reasons.. hey lester.. u got to be strong k? we will always be ther to support you;. but u will have to get control of yourself... i wil pray for ya too!!! u go guy! was famished!!! so we went home and tucked in!! yummy.. steamboat waiting for us on the table...chat n ate for aout an hour plus... jason asked if i got tofu at home.. so i went to check... lol!!! really got tofu leh!!! then i secretly brought it out.'. not letting lester see~ (lester scared of tofu).. then i brought lester to get drink.. while i passed them the tofu.. and they opened it and placed it in frot of lester table.. lol.. when lester came back.. he saw the tofu and was shocked! then jason squeezed the tofu inside the satemboat... lol.. quite nice leh.. the egg tofu... saw susan's face.. was totally digusted by it.. fagan was also telling us about the story of a play... very fun.y dunoe what the maid goes to heaven.. -.-"
after food.. played some final fantasy songs on the paino... susan was crazy about it man.. lol! anywae...my friend, yi qing came while we were playing worms on the ps2.. lol.. then we talked for a while... eating fruits and stuffs.. soon.. the night became old..( cos its not young...) so they went home... i waited with susan at the bustop until her bus came.. have a little talk... well! susan!! cheer up k? see ya guys soon!!! and lester.. pls go see doctor..!
Reality Sucks Big Time
2:04 AM
Saturday, August 14, 2004
how can a boring day get to??? with stupid biology test tmr.. and i haven even study at all? argh.. just gonna die............ go study liaoz.. just came to crap for a while... tata!!
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:43 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
had a shitty day in school.. kept falling aslp in lectures and classes.. today got so many extra lessons.. chemistry n biology spa practices.. duhz....dunoe why my life so shitified... so busy.. so much things to do.. yet nv been able to complete everything..... oh well.. met jason after school to chill out for awhile.. went to white sands.. and had swensen! we ordered Apple Crumb dunoe what thing.. its has this icecream on top of a piece of cookie tart.. placed in a sizzling hot pan with hot apple sauce n soft seasoned apple cubes around the main body.. woohoo~ damn delicious.. actually wanted to get topless 5 instead.. but its past 5 pm.. jason! gomen! next time we go eat topless 5 k? lol! drew some stuffs on jason's hand... hee hee.. secret..jason!! u cannot wash it away hor!!! heh.. i got a turtle on my hand anywae.. quite cute siaz..
have heart to heart talk... about stuffs that is happening these days... really hope things will turn better for everyone... hey guys.. i will keep ya in my prayers..
Reality Sucks Big Time
10:49 PM
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
butterfly falls asleep
Today, met two friends.. went to one of their house to slack.. was playing around with the computer.. listening to songs.. trying on clothes and stuffs...i tried on a trench coat.. was so huge.. n HOT!! lol~ one of my friend was experiencing some problems with his relationship problem.. and i and the other friend stayed on to accompany him...hey friend... i am glad that u have sort it out... at least u noe that what u want.. and u will stick to it.. in order for both parties to be happy..it's aint going to be easy.. but rem? we are on the same boat~ u are not alone~~ ^^
had fun watching the singapore idol~ was laughing like crazy loh! the stupid banana man.. and the woman who sang.. "doh re mi"... my friend's mum made "oh2 ju4" for us.. its a sticky black kinda dessert.. yummy!!! your mum is a great cook man! also baked muffins! woh!! i wanna go your house again! got food!!!next time come my house k? lol! after all that.. i went home..sianz.... dun wanna go home so soon one.. but my mama.. naggy.. oh well! what to do? lol! who call she is my mama! bleahX!!!
to jason>thanks for asking sulin to convey the message to mi..its very sweet n thoughtful of you.. its really nice to have you as a friend....^^
Reality Sucks Big Time
11:14 PM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
was also a bumpy day this morning siaz.. tossing n turning.. on the small bed...woke up.. saw porn star playing the xbox.. sianz.. went back to slp..this happen over n over n over.. until 2 plus.. finally.. everyone was ready to wakeup to grab some food..then lester's mum called... then by the time. lester return.. his face was so black... then.. oh well.. some things happen..well.. hey friend.. if u are reading this.. pls noe that we do care k? and when i say.. i will be there for my friends.. i will be there.. no empty talk k? haix.. okay.. nvm.. susan was feeling drunk.. and i think she having alittle mood swing.. then she went out to take a walk....while i and jason stayed back with lester..things got better....we went out to look for susan.. soon she was backed and we went to eat at the food court..
wah!! lester and susan damn pro.. ate two plates of bbq pork noodles.. while i and jason ate ban mian...no egg one~ cheat money siaZ the aunty!!! lol! fagan din eat anything... after tat.. we went to cheers to get some chocolates.. and strudelS! wooHOO!!~! yummy! went back to chalet.. my mama called.. and reprimmanded mi.. damn it lah.. so irritating.. was damn pissed with my mum.. luckily when i was about to break down.. jason came to cheer mi up..hey thanks jason~u have been a really good friend...felt better and went back to the room.... watch them play the worms 3.. lol! so funny.. but i wasnt really in the mood to laugh la.. before i left.. susan was still vomitting.. omg..susan!! pls dun drink so much next time woh!!! take care k?
hahaha.. okay...then i got home.. then live my sucky life as usual.. NO LIFE!!!
-copyright by fagan-
hahah!! okok.. signing off...
sevene teases the butterfly...still lying in the cage...
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:51 AM
Monday, August 09, 2004
9th August 2004
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!! AND hapPY bIRThdaY to SUsan bABe!
There's chalet today are pasir ris downtown east.. to celebrate our dear susan babe's birthday!!! but before that.. we met at tampines for a movie! i-bot! not a bad show lah.. but soso only.. i like the phrase inside..-*sneeZe.. sorry.. i am sensitive to bullshit..*-.. had bbq food...met friends there...
then lester was playing the fatal frame show.. so damn funny.. we were in the room.. then off all the lights...then.. slowly.. slowly..AH!!!~~~~ LESTER N i started screaming.. stupid ghost..kept attacking us..it was so loud that jason n gang could hear us screaming..oh well... lets go on... went down stairs to get food and drink...with fagan... terence.. jason.. n susan..was playing around with the chocolate cake... buay mi!!! thanks hor susan and jason!!! -.-" got myself creamed on the hair n shoulders.. lol!.. was happy buaying each other..
when i saw lester came back to the chalet.. he looked so pale... i asked him what happen and he refused to say a single thing...din noe what to do then.. tot maybe he had stomach problems again.. was afraid that he might faint.. so i followed behind him... he went downstairs to eat his mee pok.. and went up to get 7up to drink.. tot he having stomach problems... so i refused to let him drink the 7up and pass him the plain water instead..its was then when he tot mi that he saw "dirty things".. yah.. those kinda.. u noe... and i just kept quiet.. after a while.. we both went back to the chalet.. felt sianz..so i drank liquid.. tried the IRISH CREAM... damn damn damn nice... i wan to try it again!! lol! then drank vodka...white wine... and then XO... feeling abit siaz... had a little talk with jason about what happen just now..hey.. cheer up k jason?..haha..
fagan and lester was teasing mi about mi being drunk already.. I AM NOT DRUNK K!!! i can walk in a str8 line!! yah rite.. liek rela.. was Zig zaGginG... hahaha.. but feels good.. cant even sit str8 siaz..oh well.. but nvm... then dunoe what happen.. then i found myself on the bed liaoz.. lol!had a bumpy night.. sharing the small bed with four-six person i think.. lol!!! thats for the nightZ.. see ya folks..
Reality Sucks Big Time
5:59 AM
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Wings of the butterfly is tattered and torned...
Met Susan today.. then we travelled to habourfront mrt station.. we were late meeting that other guys.. but we found out that the rest were not there yet..so we went to the hawker centre to eat... waited for them to come.. and went to palawan beach at sentosa..
Was sun tanning for quite some time. and got into the sea.... was splashing water at each other.. lol! after that.. cronan and i swam to the opposite.. where the rocks were... i scratched my foot.. -*blEAh*-.. pain siaz!!! the water there was so dirty... ltr we swam back again... cronan was talking about some girl used sand to massage for him... then susan replied.." xi shuai shuai xi shuai shuai.. ni yao bu yao sha?" meaning.. clean clean clean.. do u wan some sand?.. its rhyme yo! ltr jason and fagan came over to meet us.. there was some misunderstanding going on.. difficult to put down into words.. but it wasn;t very pleasant.. susan and lester broke down..lester was having stomach problems...it was so terrible that he laid down n crouched on the sand..we were persuading him to bring him to the first aid place.. however.. that silly guy refused to listen.. we brought him milk instead.. rested for a while.. and he was alive n kicking again.. phew~! lester!!! pls take care of yourself k? i got a big scare man.. after clearing up all the misunderstandings... we went to take the monorail... for fun.. -.-"not bad lah.. gotta talk n play around on the monorail...after that.. we went back to singapore island.. and went home..
-*(a butterfly fluttered in its cage....)*-
Reality Sucks Big Time
12:52 AM
Thursday, August 05, 2004
The 5th of August 2004
Finally, got to set up this blog! This is my first time doing a blog.. special thanks to my brother who helped mi with the steps, jason.. who showed me the website for blogskins, and fagan who offered his user account for blogskin!!! Hope you guys will like this blog!
signing off with love,
Sevene
Reality Sucks Big Time
4:10 AM
Monday, August 02, 2004
new blog createD~
new blog created!!
Reality Sucks Big Time
8:13 AM